A week has passed, attachment looks good so far. Today, Jiesheng and I played pool and table soccer with the staff there. Well, we had nothing to do so we were slacking around at the level 8 pantry which have 2 table soccer and a pool table. We did paperwork for the staff there and we finished it quickly so that is the reason we were bored. We have not been briefed by the facility manager there so we couldn't do lab work.
During lunch break, a staff called Guy was sharing his experience of his work life. He told both of us about a conference he attended. Among the speakers for the conference, there was a scientist who discover Nipah Virus. He was telling the audience that he discovered a new strain of virus and he called it "yet-to-be-named" virus. The reason is that he do not know what to call it. That is pure pawnage... A scientist discovered a new virus yet do not know what to call it. How epic can that get? Guy has a project but apparently he is doing alone. He shared that his head told him that the project consist of him, him and only him. He put it in another way: The project consist of Guy, Guy and only Guy. I was laughing my ass out. Well, first week is usually orientation week. Things are free and easy. Not to mention BORING. Hope there is a bit of work to do next week...
22 March 2011
Second day of attachment, I have met my supervisor and it turns out that it is a female. The name sounds like a guy's name. I was asked to fill up the pipette tips.. Apparently, I lost count of how many I did but there is at least 20+. My friend and I did at least 40+ within 4 hours =.=lll Jiesheng and I have to do that again for tomorrow =w=lll On the bright side, I learnt a new technique called Shell-Vial Technique. NYP didn't teach this technique =.=lll The staffs there are very nice and friendly. I still don't know who the heck is my partner... There is a pantry at level 8. In the pantry, there is a pool table, 2 table soccer, magazines and television. Also, microwave and other common pantry equipments. Forget to mention this, the lift there is quite special. In the lift, there is only "Door Open" and "Door Close" button. You have to press the floor that you want to go outside the lift and the screen will tell you which lift to take. Awesome or what? XD Tired but interesting.. I starting to like this attachment.
20 March 2011
The day before the start of my attachment, feeling? Mixed including a bit of sick. It could have due to the change of weather. Hopefully I don't screw the first day of attachment. I going to give the best, major chance to pull up GPA.
Right now, I rarely text her. She is busy working. From the start, I should have listen to my friends' advice. We just have the fate to be friends or close friends but no affinity for higher level. Back then, I was living in denial, refusing to admit. Felt as if I just dropped from 100th storey buliding, the feel of falling. I miss my close friends and those who I hang out/slack with. But too bad, we have our own lifestyle and work to attend to. For now, those memories spent with her can be kept at the back of my mind. Moments that become memories...
Do check out this song titled "What Are Words" by Chris Medina. I find the lyrics are very meaningful.
Right now, I rarely text her. She is busy working. From the start, I should have listen to my friends' advice. We just have the fate to be friends or close friends but no affinity for higher level. Back then, I was living in denial, refusing to admit. Felt as if I just dropped from 100th storey buliding, the feel of falling. I miss my close friends and those who I hang out/slack with. But too bad, we have our own lifestyle and work to attend to. For now, those memories spent with her can be kept at the back of my mind. Moments that become memories...
Do check out this song titled "What Are Words" by Chris Medina. I find the lyrics are very meaningful.
23 Jan 2010
"Even if the morrow is barren of promises,
Nothing shall forestall my return,
To become the dew that quenches the land,
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer thee this silent sacrifice"
Nothing shall forestall my return,
To become the dew that quenches the land,
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer thee this silent sacrifice"
21 Jan 2010
When my friends and I talk about relationship, I most probably hearing things that the other half control them. That is pretty common until I am not surprised to hear it. For me, I do not like to control my other half. Simple reason, she will have her own lifestyle as well. Freedom, that is another reason.
Would you like to be controlled totally? Answer is no.
People who control their gf/bf is because they scare of losing them, this is the most logical reason I can come up with. There are other reasons as well. If your relationship is good, why scare? You have nothing to fear. You can't be selfish and keep your other half from contacting his/her friends. I find it as a act of selfishness. People who control their gf/bf are nowhere any different from a dictator, seriously. Guy who control his gf is seriously a freaking disgrace. I hate guys who said they put down their pride to ask for a patch up when they are actually in fault. These type of guys are INSULTS to the real man's pride. Seriously speaking, there is quite a long list of types of people which I hate.... What I can do? Learn from their mistake and don't commit such selfish mistakes.
Would you like to be controlled totally? Answer is no.
People who control their gf/bf is because they scare of losing them, this is the most logical reason I can come up with. There are other reasons as well. If your relationship is good, why scare? You have nothing to fear. You can't be selfish and keep your other half from contacting his/her friends. I find it as a act of selfishness. People who control their gf/bf are nowhere any different from a dictator, seriously. Guy who control his gf is seriously a freaking disgrace. I hate guys who said they put down their pride to ask for a patch up when they are actually in fault. These type of guys are INSULTS to the real man's pride. Seriously speaking, there is quite a long list of types of people which I hate.... What I can do? Learn from their mistake and don't commit such selfish mistakes.
15 Jan 2010
It has been some time since the last time I walked in a drizzle. Today, I had my haircut as my hair was getting long. Out of boredom, I read all my sms inbox and noticed one of the message which I previously did not pay attention to. It seems that she gave her new number beforehand. I sms-ed her through that number, she asked me who am I. I answered her question and she asked if she gave me her new number. I replied that she did give. After awhile, it died. I texted her how have she been. No reply ever since.
Waiting for my turn to have my haircut, there was tevelsion showing some old chinese drama. There is one part whereby the girl said that all guys keep their stuff/secrets/emotion (well, basically everything) in their heart. True, same goes to me as well. I am no exception from that sentence. Rarely will I share with my friends my troubles, sorrows and others. I listen to my friends pouring out their feelings. Most of the time, the issue or the problem lies with me. No point sharing if I don't do anything and just saying it. Sometimes, it just that I feel even if I tell them, they can't help much about it. For me, when I can't help my friend, I felt useless. I am not sure about my friends if they feel the same way. But still, I won't tell them just in case if they feel the same way as me. So usually, I blog but I won't reveal much as well..
Last night, my friend was chatting with me on Twitter. Well, not exactly like MSN chat though. She asked me not to be emotional so much. Well, it's hard not to be that way when you miss someone. Don't you think so? She shared with me if she miss someone, she would just cry. I wish I could but I guess I have no tears left? The last time I cried was when I was in Secondary 1. Ever since then, I didn't cry even when my grandmother passed away. I was sad back then when she passed away, just no tears coming out. She said that I was strong. This leads me to think of a double-edged sword. Both side of the double-edged sword can be used. In life, most things are like a double-edged sword. Good and bad, strong and weak and others. What you see might be just one sided. I may seems to be strong but I do have my weakest moment. I may seem cheerful but I do have my saddest moment. By the way, what is the definition of "Strong" in life? Physically? Mentally? Emotionally? Spiritually? How would you define strong? I know one thing is for sure: I am not strong...
Walked in the drizzle... It was ages since I last did that. Nowadays, it keep raining. I am always tempted to walk in the drizzle but it was not at the right time. Everytime it drizzles, I also have my bag of notes with me or my laptop. Today, I had my keys with me only. So I just walked in the drizzle and at the same time, it made me feel better. It also straighten my thoughts as well. I am nothing, why should I go into relationship since I have nothing to give to my the other half? What I can give is something that is not practical or essential for survival. It's no wonder she ignores me. I have no idea what's going on and I having guess about it. Well, I roughly got her message that asking me to leave her alone.... I guess I am too sticky and irritating. I am depriving her from her freedom and interuppting her focus. I actually unknowing did something that I didn't want to do in the first place. Now, just let me "disappear" for now....
Waiting for my turn to have my haircut, there was tevelsion showing some old chinese drama. There is one part whereby the girl said that all guys keep their stuff/secrets/emotion (well, basically everything) in their heart. True, same goes to me as well. I am no exception from that sentence. Rarely will I share with my friends my troubles, sorrows and others. I listen to my friends pouring out their feelings. Most of the time, the issue or the problem lies with me. No point sharing if I don't do anything and just saying it. Sometimes, it just that I feel even if I tell them, they can't help much about it. For me, when I can't help my friend, I felt useless. I am not sure about my friends if they feel the same way. But still, I won't tell them just in case if they feel the same way as me. So usually, I blog but I won't reveal much as well..
Last night, my friend was chatting with me on Twitter. Well, not exactly like MSN chat though. She asked me not to be emotional so much. Well, it's hard not to be that way when you miss someone. Don't you think so? She shared with me if she miss someone, she would just cry. I wish I could but I guess I have no tears left? The last time I cried was when I was in Secondary 1. Ever since then, I didn't cry even when my grandmother passed away. I was sad back then when she passed away, just no tears coming out. She said that I was strong. This leads me to think of a double-edged sword. Both side of the double-edged sword can be used. In life, most things are like a double-edged sword. Good and bad, strong and weak and others. What you see might be just one sided. I may seems to be strong but I do have my weakest moment. I may seem cheerful but I do have my saddest moment. By the way, what is the definition of "Strong" in life? Physically? Mentally? Emotionally? Spiritually? How would you define strong? I know one thing is for sure: I am not strong...
Walked in the drizzle... It was ages since I last did that. Nowadays, it keep raining. I am always tempted to walk in the drizzle but it was not at the right time. Everytime it drizzles, I also have my bag of notes with me or my laptop. Today, I had my keys with me only. So I just walked in the drizzle and at the same time, it made me feel better. It also straighten my thoughts as well. I am nothing, why should I go into relationship since I have nothing to give to my the other half? What I can give is something that is not practical or essential for survival. It's no wonder she ignores me. I have no idea what's going on and I having guess about it. Well, I roughly got her message that asking me to leave her alone.... I guess I am too sticky and irritating. I am depriving her from her freedom and interuppting her focus. I actually unknowing did something that I didn't want to do in the first place. Now, just let me "disappear" for now....
31 Dec 2010
Last day of 2010. Not much to post about. The incident happened close to one month ago. The impact was strong and till now, I still the side effects of it. It totally shaked me off track seriously. Meanwhile, what I can do is to hope and pray. As my friend told me: "What's yours in life shall not be taken away from you", these words somehow give me hope and install fear in me as well. Quite contradicting.. Well, 2010 is a closed chapter once it pasts 12.00am. A new chapter awaits, a new year starting with a bang. I hope everything will turn out smoothly for everyone adn all the best for them...
19 Dec 2010
Verse 1:
The last that ever she saw him, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
He passed on worried and warning, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
Lost in a riddle that Saturday night, far away on the other side,
he was caught in the middle of a desperate fight, and she couldn't find how to push through.
Verse 2:
The trees that whisper in the evening, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
Sing the song of sorrow and grieving, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
All she saw was a silhouette of a gun, far away on the other side,
He was shot six times by a man on the run, and she couldn't find how to push through.
Bridge:
I stay, I pray, I see you in heaven far away,
I stay, I pray, I see you in heaven one day.
Verse 3:
Four a.m. in the morning, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
I watched your vision forming, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
Star was glowin' in a silvery night, far away on the other side,
Will you come to talk to me this night, but she couldn't find how to push through.
Bridge:
I stay, I pray, I see you in heaven far away,
I stay, I pray, I see you in heaven one day.
This is the lyrics for the song "Moonlight Shadow" which I have been listening to it over and over again for the past few days... Apparently, there are different version but I like this version the best. The tune is representing the emotions that I am feeling now...
Youtube: Moonlight Shadow by Groove Coverage
The last that ever she saw him, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
He passed on worried and warning, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
Lost in a riddle that Saturday night, far away on the other side,
he was caught in the middle of a desperate fight, and she couldn't find how to push through.
Verse 2:
The trees that whisper in the evening, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
Sing the song of sorrow and grieving, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
All she saw was a silhouette of a gun, far away on the other side,
He was shot six times by a man on the run, and she couldn't find how to push through.
Bridge:
I stay, I pray, I see you in heaven far away,
I stay, I pray, I see you in heaven one day.
Verse 3:
Four a.m. in the morning, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
I watched your vision forming, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
Star was glowin' in a silvery night, far away on the other side,
Will you come to talk to me this night, but she couldn't find how to push through.
Bridge:
I stay, I pray, I see you in heaven far away,
I stay, I pray, I see you in heaven one day.
This is the lyrics for the song "Moonlight Shadow" which I have been listening to it over and over again for the past few days... Apparently, there are different version but I like this version the best. The tune is representing the emotions that I am feeling now...
Youtube: Moonlight Shadow by Groove Coverage
18 Dec 2010
I went out with my mum to Nex shopping mall this morning and at the same time, I went to settled my ATM card because of my mistake. The other day I lost my wallet and I cancelled my ATM card. They sent a new ATM card to me along with my new pin which is a seperated letter. When I went to activate the card, I didn't check and as a result, the new card is also blocked. Best joke. After that, my mum and I went to Nex to do some window shopping. I saw there is a G2000 store and quickly went in to check it out. I saw this black tie.. I like it seriously, I don't really like my clothes to have so many patterns on it. I prefer it simple. There were a few formal wear that caught my attention as well... Haha... Next, we went to Fairprice and bought some stuff. Then we both came across the wine section, I was like "Hmmm, I had never try white wine yet. All along, I was drinking red white.". I asked my mum if we could buy one bottle of white wine and she agreed. We ended up buying one bottle of white wine and one bottle of red wine XD WEE~ Hehe... I shall strike the white wine first.
11 Dec 2010
Recently, I watched a movie called 'The Sister's Keeper'. The main plot is whereby a girl name Kate was suffering acute promyelocytic leukemia, a cancer of the blood and bone marrow. In order to save Kate, the parents decided to 'genetically engineered' a child. This child name Anna. From birth, Anna has been dontaing bone marrow, blood and umbilical cord to keep Kate alive. Till the age of 13, Anna was required to donate one of her kidney to keep her alive. However, once Anna donate her kidney, she might not be able to lead a normal life like playing soccer and be a mother. Anna filed for medical emancipation which will protect Anna from any transplant of her body parts. Of course, her mother was in rage and both of them fought the case in court. In the end, Anna won. During the trials, Anna had memory flashback of how close she was with her sister. Along the trials, a saddening truth unfolded. It turned out that Kate was the one who told Anna to filed for medical emancipation as Kate did not want to live any longer. Kate knew that Sara, her mum would not listen nor accept Kate's request. So Kate asked Anna to file for it. Sara broke into tears as she did not want to lose Kate.
While I was watching, I have these thoughts: 'How did my mum and dad feel when both of them were told that my dad had colorectal cancer', 'How did my mum feel when my dad moved on?' and others. Most of the question or thoughts was mainly revolved around my dad's cancer, my dad and my mum. While I was watching and thinking about those, I can't help it but to let a few tears dropped. It has been a long time since a tear dropped from my eye. I really miss him even though I have not much memories of him. The main reason I took this course and choosen the R&D track is to join the fight against cancer. One of my personal goals is to prevent family from suffering/breaking up by cancer. After watching this movie, I was more motivated to work hard to work towards my goals.
While I was watching, I have these thoughts: 'How did my mum and dad feel when both of them were told that my dad had colorectal cancer', 'How did my mum feel when my dad moved on?' and others. Most of the question or thoughts was mainly revolved around my dad's cancer, my dad and my mum. While I was watching and thinking about those, I can't help it but to let a few tears dropped. It has been a long time since a tear dropped from my eye. I really miss him even though I have not much memories of him. The main reason I took this course and choosen the R&D track is to join the fight against cancer. One of my personal goals is to prevent family from suffering/breaking up by cancer. After watching this movie, I was more motivated to work hard to work towards my goals.
19 Nov 2010
Today was pretty bad... After lecture, I had lunch with my secondary school junior and one of them is freaking violent. She keep kick me and whack me. Then I was having a slight headache still go whack my head. That one really made me a bit angry. I showed her a serious look and told her that I having headache and ask her to stop hitting my head. Of course, she was scared and said yes. Not that I bully her, she is easily scared.
Then I went up to their "classroom" to play Dota with Avery and others. Avery got killed pretty badly. His record was only 6 death and more than 10 deaths. I thought he was good but apparently, not really. We have fun. I headed off to meet some friends and when I was on the way, I felt the dull pain in my chest. Most probably is the heart again. I felt like I was being stunned or something, did not feel the pulse at that second. 3 times, it happen today. Troublesome heart...
Then I went up to their "classroom" to play Dota with Avery and others. Avery got killed pretty badly. His record was only 6 death and more than 10 deaths. I thought he was good but apparently, not really. We have fun. I headed off to meet some friends and when I was on the way, I felt the dull pain in my chest. Most probably is the heart again. I felt like I was being stunned or something, did not feel the pulse at that second. 3 times, it happen today. Troublesome heart...
11 Nov 2010
I am not in pretty good mood.. I shall keep the post short. The girl I liked recently broke up and I confessed to her... Best part is that she patch up with her ex-boyfriend today. That totally send me crashing down. I got high hopes for this and fell pretty badly. What a plunge.. Ouch? Yeap... Definitely ouch to the max. I really like her.. Things just didn't work out..
My god sister is also feeling down. But I didn't let her know cause she got enough. I comforted her and let her rest on my shoulder. At the same time, I gently rested on her and comforted both of us at the same time. Seeing her cry is like wrenching my heart... Then in the end, she stopped crying and felt better. I was still disappointed and still calming myself down. Relationship... Next time..
My god sister is also feeling down. But I didn't let her know cause she got enough. I comforted her and let her rest on my shoulder. At the same time, I gently rested on her and comforted both of us at the same time. Seeing her cry is like wrenching my heart... Then in the end, she stopped crying and felt better. I was still disappointed and still calming myself down. Relationship... Next time..
14 August 2010
People may think that drills is tough. But to me, it is a way to move smartly on parade ground and show the pride of wearing the uniform. Let it be the No. 4 uniform (Army Land combat uniform) or the No. 1 uniform (White formal uniform), movements must be smart to bring out the pride and smartness. The recent National Day Parade or as always, movements are smart.It totally brings the 'wow' out from the people who are watching the parade. When I teach my juniors about drills, whether it is arm drills or stationary drills, I will make sure they do it with smartness otherwise will be repeat. During secondary school, I was glad that I was able to attend the Advanced Drill Course (ADC). Then again, I kind of forget some. Luckily, there is a refresher course after I become an officer. I will definitely make sure my cadets able to carry out every single drill properly and smartly just like national day parade.
Random post =P
Random post =P
11 August 2010
The past few days was pretty AWESOME! YEA PEOPLE! AWESOME! NDP parade in secondary school have a new history written by NCC! National Day Observation Ceremony was a great success! It was so successful to the extend that the citizen actually take photo with the cadets in No. 1 uniform. My secondary school have 2 runner in the YOG torch relay. Much things going on secondary school XD. New friends were made during these events. Relationship between UG is definitely better than last time.
Exam is coming. Let's put aside exam first. I have recently got a few new targets.
Targets:
- Learn how to swim (so I can enjoy water sports as well!)
-Play an accoustic guitar (Music is what calms me down and allowing me to express my emotions freely)
-Gym to keep myself fit (last time, don't really gym much or rather rarely.)
-Learn Apologize (One Republic), Superman (Five for Fighting), Price of Freedom (Takeharu Ishimoto) and other song that comes into my mind.
-Study hard for exam to pursue my dreams
Sheesh, I guess I am too random. Blog next time. Cya around =D
Exam is coming. Let's put aside exam first. I have recently got a few new targets.
Targets:
- Learn how to swim (so I can enjoy water sports as well!)
-Play an accoustic guitar (Music is what calms me down and allowing me to express my emotions freely)
-Gym to keep myself fit (last time, don't really gym much or rather rarely.)
-Learn Apologize (One Republic), Superman (Five for Fighting), Price of Freedom (Takeharu Ishimoto) and other song that comes into my mind.
-Study hard for exam to pursue my dreams
Sheesh, I guess I am too random. Blog next time. Cya around =D
30 July 2010
I had one hour of marketing lecture and 1.5 hours of practical test. I was so freaking sleepy during the lecture. It was partly due to the cold weather in the morning and the lecture was boring as usual. Followed by Analytical Biochemistry practical test, I was pretty nervous. Niva, who was in front of me, told me that my movement was pretty 'automated'. I screwed the practical test. I actually mistook the Bradford reagent as the BSA. But lucky, I managed to work my way out in the end. I re-calculated the remaining Bradford reagent that is supposed to be added and added into the eppendorf tube. The result seems to be ok as the standards solution shows an increasing absorbance reading which it is supposed to be. It appears that I was not the only one that make the mistake. But overall, it was ok. Joke of the day~!
24 July 2010
I'm looking forward to outings next month especially with my working clique. Although they have quited from Fairprice, we still have contact with each other. We are still as close like last time (maybe not for Gladdys). I don't know about her. It appears that there is some issue going and I don't have the full details about it. Since last year, we worked together with each other, hang out with each other. Free and easy. No restrictions at all. We joke, laugh and care each other although we are in different places. Sometimes, outing are organised when one's birthday is closing in. Some of us may not be able to make it for the gathering and instead, they contribute in other ways like gift, wishes and others. To me, it is really the thoughts that counts. It may be a simple outing with simple things and simple gifts but in the end, I appreciate all the thoughts as they really care for me as a friend. I miss those days where we joke at work, disturbing one another and working together. Those days were really AWESOME! The word "awesome" is not really enough to describe it. I'm just using it as an analogy. I remember the times when I met stupid customer and I told them that I would sent the computer screen flying into customer's face. We laughed and had a bit of fun back there. On my birthday, to be honest, I don't mind a simple gathering like dinner as I really hoped to catch up with them in their life. I'm quiting pretty soon as well. Next week would be the last week that I am going to work and it represent the start of my studies. I am going to catch up with all the studies. Now the branch left Nuar and Jin Xiang. Oh well, I will drop by sometime and say hi to them and some of the aunties there who treated very nice. Recently, I found my "long-lost" MP3 player but the ear piece spoiled =.=lll. Crap, I need to get a new one. Haix. Still, the working clique are still the same. Free and easy. Speak freely. This is the way I like best =D
10 July 2010
After yesterday's post, I have been thinking. Wei Keat, since you are tired, sick of it, just leave the clique. Have rest. After you are alright, consider it again. But, I think no need to consider. To prevent it from happening again or history repeating itself, I just stand alone but making friends still. No joining of clique but making friends. This is how I analyse things : When a problem arises, solve it. After solving, think of a prevention. In this case, this is the best prevention. No more stupid gossips around in the clique after I leave. No more this kind of crap happening. There will not be a next time. Leon was like brainwashing me not to leave the clique. Sorry Leon, no can't do. Have to leave. Even I resolve the problem with Guo Wei, still have to leave. I need a break, freedom and beside, it's just leaving the clique only. It's not like we turn into enemy. We may not be that close as before (and I don't think we are that close, since there is gossiping around in the group). I don't want to to face sarcastic people when dealing with issue with requires direct and not beat around the bush communication. At night, I had sent an sms to Cheng Guo Wei saying this, "I'm sorry for not informing you regarding the issue of confronting Lidya. As I hope that honest, unedited words to beard by Lidya. If you feel that there is no sincerity, I apologize again on monday face-to-face. And I believe you heard from Leon that I leaving the clique. I hope that you guys will stay together as a clique as before except that without me. Oce again, I'm sorry. There will not be a second time nor next time. Cya.". This message represents that I have no grudge against Guo Wei. But if he wants to bear the grudge with me, I will not do anything. I will still treat him as normal friends. It will be his business to treat me as a friend or foe. I'm not giving a **** anymore. Leon, I am ALWAYS READY TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO SALVAGE A FRIENDSHIP. I gave up because Guo Wei is not willing to listen. I don't give a **** about pride, diginity if friendship is affected. It's good that Leon, you have see that pride and diginity do kills friendship. Couting down to my freedom..
9 July 2010
BEFORE YOU READ THIS POST, IF THERE IS ANY THINGS THAT YOU FEEL THAT I SHOULD BE RESPONSIBLE FOR. SAY IT IN FRONT OF ME. I WILL TAKE UP THE *** **** RESPONSIBILITY.
This morning, I told myself to patch back the friendship between Guo Wei and I. I offered to print today's Analytical Biochemistry practical today. I photocopied for Leon, Tsz Ting, Guo Wei and Leon but I printed the wrong manuel. I asked Huda to print for them since she need to use a thumbdrive to print her stuff. In the end, Tsz Ting had her own copy. So I gave to Sherry, Leon, Guo Wei and Lidya. I paid the money back to Niva since it was her who paid for the 4 copies. Guo Wei got the 4 copies and he put it on the desk that I was sitting on in a cold attitude. I told myself, "He is still mad at me, never mind. I should give him some time to think about." Throughout the day, he was cold to me. I was unable to understand. Before the practical, there was an one hour lecture of marketing. After the marketing, I called him but he choose to ignore. Once again, I understand how he feels. Around 1pm, I told Leon, Joshua and Guo Wei that we have a meeting for our marketing project. Leon had Japanese lesson which mean Guo Wei and Joshua are able to attend. They did turned up. However, it was not a good meeting as Guo Wei sharing ideas only to Joshua while I sharing ideas with Guo Wei and Joshua. I was talking to the both of them and Guo Wei was talking softly to Joshua. I can still hear them but it was soft and some parts I did not hear it. In the end, the meeting ended shortly after. I told Joshua to discuss online as Guo Wei was unco-operative. He is mixing his personal and studies together as one issue which means he brings the attitude of the incident to the assignment. That is the reason I ended the meeting. Whatever I say, he will not listen. Yesterday, I sent an sms saying that there is meeting today. IF ANYONE DO NOT WISH TO SEE ME TOMORROW, THEY CAN GO BACK AFTER THE PRACTICAL ENDED AND I WILL NOT REPORT TO THE TEACHER. (I missed out the "me" in the original message). This is because I know that Guo Wei most likely will be still angry after what had happened yesterday afternoon. He turned up and I thought he is fine already, ready to get work. In the end, it was not what I expect. He still not ready for work, in fact he still brings the attitude to the meeting. He just comes for the sake of coming. We are close to or already 18 and he is already 18 for crying out loud! He still cannot separate between work and personal life/friends. The meeting is to discuss the assignment, NOT TO SHOW YOUR F***ING ATTITUDE FROM YOUR PERSONAL LIFE OR TO SHOW YOUR UNHAPPINESS TOWARDS ME. WHEN IT IS WORK, TALK ABOUT WORK ONLY. WHEN IT IS PERSONAL LIFESTYLE, WE TALK ABOUT PERSONAL LIFE STUFF. NOT MIXING EVERY SINGLE S*** INTO ONE BIG F***ING LUMP AND DROP THE F***ING BOMB TO ME! 18 YEARS OLD AND YOU STILL STUBBORN, SORRY I CANNOT TOLERATE THIS KIND OF STUBBORNESS IN WORK. I CANNOT TOLERATE PEOPLE WHO MIX PERSONAL AND WORK. But for Guo Wei, I choose to believe it is only for a moment. I believe that he remove his cold attitude towards me and we can be friends again. When i talked to him earlier on the meeting, he told me, 'I regretted saving you back then.' Back to the hamster issue, it was Guo Wei who first told me about it, followed by Lidya. Back then, Guo Wei told he felt that I have the right to know what is going on. SAME GOES HERE! Lidya have the right to know about what is being talked about her behind her back. SIMPLE AS THAT. IF YOU THINK I TRYING TO SABOTAGE YOUR FRIENDSHIP WITH LIDYA, YOU ARE NOT MY FRIEND. LIDYA, LEON AND TSZ TING UNDERSTAND ESPECIALLY LIDYA WHO UNDERSTAND ME TOTALLY. Then again, if you had told her how you feel, would this happen? WOULD IT? Instead of telling another person, tell it straight into the person's face. Simple? Yes? If you got the guts, say it straight it the face of that person. IF YOU ARE UNHAPPY WITH ME, SAY IT OUT LOUD IN FRONT OF ME. The way I see now and I can describe it with one word: CHILDISH. We are already young adults, we can talk it out and you choose to show your F***ING childish attitude to me. Wow, maybe you should go back to primary school. You got a mouth, why not talk to me? EVEN IF I TALK TO YOU, WOULD YOU EVEN LISTEN A SINGLE D*** THING INTO YOUR F***ING HEAD? WOULD YOU? CAUSE YOU ARE JUST F***ING TOO STUBBORN! BESIDE STUBBORN, YOU ARE PETTY AS WELL CAUSE YOU BEAR GRUDGES WITH PEOPLE. Enough saying. I'm tired. I'm sick of it. I don't want to join ANY F***ING CLIQUE ANYMORE! I'M BETTER OFF THAN ALONE. AND YES, I REFERING TO CHENG GUO WEI FROM MB0903 WITH THE ADMIN NUMBER OF 094357H. NO MORE F***ING GUESSING GAME! F*** THIS ****
This morning, I told myself to patch back the friendship between Guo Wei and I. I offered to print today's Analytical Biochemistry practical today. I photocopied for Leon, Tsz Ting, Guo Wei and Leon but I printed the wrong manuel. I asked Huda to print for them since she need to use a thumbdrive to print her stuff. In the end, Tsz Ting had her own copy. So I gave to Sherry, Leon, Guo Wei and Lidya. I paid the money back to Niva since it was her who paid for the 4 copies. Guo Wei got the 4 copies and he put it on the desk that I was sitting on in a cold attitude. I told myself, "He is still mad at me, never mind. I should give him some time to think about." Throughout the day, he was cold to me. I was unable to understand. Before the practical, there was an one hour lecture of marketing. After the marketing, I called him but he choose to ignore. Once again, I understand how he feels. Around 1pm, I told Leon, Joshua and Guo Wei that we have a meeting for our marketing project. Leon had Japanese lesson which mean Guo Wei and Joshua are able to attend. They did turned up. However, it was not a good meeting as Guo Wei sharing ideas only to Joshua while I sharing ideas with Guo Wei and Joshua. I was talking to the both of them and Guo Wei was talking softly to Joshua. I can still hear them but it was soft and some parts I did not hear it. In the end, the meeting ended shortly after. I told Joshua to discuss online as Guo Wei was unco-operative. He is mixing his personal and studies together as one issue which means he brings the attitude of the incident to the assignment. That is the reason I ended the meeting. Whatever I say, he will not listen. Yesterday, I sent an sms saying that there is meeting today. IF ANYONE DO NOT WISH TO SEE ME TOMORROW, THEY CAN GO BACK AFTER THE PRACTICAL ENDED AND I WILL NOT REPORT TO THE TEACHER. (I missed out the "me" in the original message). This is because I know that Guo Wei most likely will be still angry after what had happened yesterday afternoon. He turned up and I thought he is fine already, ready to get work. In the end, it was not what I expect. He still not ready for work, in fact he still brings the attitude to the meeting. He just comes for the sake of coming. We are close to or already 18 and he is already 18 for crying out loud! He still cannot separate between work and personal life/friends. The meeting is to discuss the assignment, NOT TO SHOW YOUR F***ING ATTITUDE FROM YOUR PERSONAL LIFE OR TO SHOW YOUR UNHAPPINESS TOWARDS ME. WHEN IT IS WORK, TALK ABOUT WORK ONLY. WHEN IT IS PERSONAL LIFESTYLE, WE TALK ABOUT PERSONAL LIFE STUFF. NOT MIXING EVERY SINGLE S*** INTO ONE BIG F***ING LUMP AND DROP THE F***ING BOMB TO ME! 18 YEARS OLD AND YOU STILL STUBBORN, SORRY I CANNOT TOLERATE THIS KIND OF STUBBORNESS IN WORK. I CANNOT TOLERATE PEOPLE WHO MIX PERSONAL AND WORK. But for Guo Wei, I choose to believe it is only for a moment. I believe that he remove his cold attitude towards me and we can be friends again. When i talked to him earlier on the meeting, he told me, 'I regretted saving you back then.' Back to the hamster issue, it was Guo Wei who first told me about it, followed by Lidya. Back then, Guo Wei told he felt that I have the right to know what is going on. SAME GOES HERE! Lidya have the right to know about what is being talked about her behind her back. SIMPLE AS THAT. IF YOU THINK I TRYING TO SABOTAGE YOUR FRIENDSHIP WITH LIDYA, YOU ARE NOT MY FRIEND. LIDYA, LEON AND TSZ TING UNDERSTAND ESPECIALLY LIDYA WHO UNDERSTAND ME TOTALLY. Then again, if you had told her how you feel, would this happen? WOULD IT? Instead of telling another person, tell it straight into the person's face. Simple? Yes? If you got the guts, say it straight it the face of that person. IF YOU ARE UNHAPPY WITH ME, SAY IT OUT LOUD IN FRONT OF ME. The way I see now and I can describe it with one word: CHILDISH. We are already young adults, we can talk it out and you choose to show your F***ING childish attitude to me. Wow, maybe you should go back to primary school. You got a mouth, why not talk to me? EVEN IF I TALK TO YOU, WOULD YOU EVEN LISTEN A SINGLE D*** THING INTO YOUR F***ING HEAD? WOULD YOU? CAUSE YOU ARE JUST F***ING TOO STUBBORN! BESIDE STUBBORN, YOU ARE PETTY AS WELL CAUSE YOU BEAR GRUDGES WITH PEOPLE. Enough saying. I'm tired. I'm sick of it. I don't want to join ANY F***ING CLIQUE ANYMORE! I'M BETTER OFF THAN ALONE. AND YES, I REFERING TO CHENG GUO WEI FROM MB0903 WITH THE ADMIN NUMBER OF 094357H. NO MORE F***ING GUESSING GAME! F*** THIS ****
26 June 2010
Just came back from expedition not long, problems already started arising. It was the grouping for HACCP project. There was a miscommunication but it was solved. The miscommunication was the not main problem. It appears that there are issues with one particular person. I will not mention names here. Yup. Still, I insisted on my decision. Firstly, I will try to think of others before me. Second, once I made up my mind, save your effort in changing my decision. I will not change my decision. It was rather saddening that so many people have issue with this person yet they do not speak up. We are all friends, we should communicate better with each other compared to others. If there is any issue/problem/unhappiness, we should have a nice talk with each other and not hiding feelings to themselves. Let's think about it. In a long run, that person may know and get hurt. Why? Cause that person's best friend/clique actually is not happy with him/her but they do not speak up. Worse still, they say it to others and she get to know it later. The meaning of having friends is to help one another, accepting one's flaws and strength, speaking freely when in a clique. When I first heard about it, I felt saddening. I said this a lot of times, "Please say it out if you are unhappy with anything. We are all friends. We are not mind readers, that is why we have a mouth to speak up." I always stress this to my friend. Let it be negative or positive comments, I will still take into consideration and make changes if need to. This is because we are not perfect but we can be a better person. Beside sad, I feel so helpless. Everyone is against one person but I know nothing about it but now. If only I have know it sooner, I can attempt to change their thinking. Since it reach this stage, I will take a step at a time to solve this issue. It may be hard but I believe that it can be solved.
21-24 June 2010
Well, I came back from the expedition last night. Overall, the expedition was fun and at the same time, I learnt and refresh what I have learnt from the previous expedition I went. There are lots of lesson to be learnt from this expedition. New friends were made and I even found my primary school classmate.
21 June 2010
We were preparing logistic stuff and having team-bonding session. For me, I feel that the people from ADC were rather friendly. We set off in the night to our desinated checkpoint which is a mosque. The mosque's location was near to the location we were trekking. On the way there, we were in high spirit and singing away. Some were resting. For me, I was chatting away with other people.There a movie titled 'How to Train Your Dragon' being played during the trip but it was not in 3D =P
22 June 2010
We reached the mosque at 0400 hrs. We rested for another 2 hours before setting off to the foot of the mountain. I wasn't sleeping and again, I was chatting away. At 0600hrs, we woke up and prepared food. We had mashed egg with bread. For my group, we prepared breakfast and moblie lunch as we are one of the 2 groups to trek up the waterfall source. There was a lorry that picked us up from the mosque to the base of the mountain. It seems that we were supposed to go Jerankang waterfall instead of Berkelah waterfall. When we reached Jerankang waterfall, it seems that it was occupied by the Malaysia NSmen. They appears to be having training and so we travelled to Berkelah waterfall. I heard from the ADC people saying that Jerangkang waterfall is better. But it was occupied, so oh well. Leon and I were in different group but we are in the group that supposed to trek up first. On the way up, it did shower a bit but it did not last long. When we reached the camp site, we set up our parsha (I don't know if it is spelled like this). After that, we trekked up to the waterfall source. It was long but fun when on the way up. The scenary was nice especially the course of the waterfall. We saw pitcher plant and some reptiles as well. We reached the waterfall source after 3 hours or more of trekking. Most of us reached there smoothly but Sherry was not feeling well when close to the waterfall. But she recovered from dipping her feet in the cooling water. We have corns, bread as our lunch. We trekked down to prepare out dinner. We did river tracing. Leon was my partner in river tracing as I do not know how to swim. He helped me a lot. I almost drifted with the current but luckily, Shida stretched out her hand just in time. During the process of river tracing, Leon lost his glasses as well. I managed to grab her hand and get to shore safely. We had a star gazing session at night and a team bonding game as well. I regret that I actually slept during the star-gazing session. But I was really tired and I was awake for the night. I did night sentry duty as well. It was fun as I chatted with people who were on different night sentry duty.
23 June 2010
In the morning, we had a morning dip in the water and played 'Washing machine'. It was so fun especially the person that was being passed got thrown into the river. After that, we went up from our camp site to a gentle river. We played games as well. It is simple but fun. We keep splashing water at the person as he/she loses. So funny. There was a gala night! The theme was 'Flintstone'. It was rather funny but we all enjoyed it. I bumped the wrong person during the skit and the gas lamp toppled. I felt bad back there >< . Again, I did not sleep at night. I went to the sentry area and chatted. Andy was there as well. He cooked food and prepared drinks. Iksun was there as well. He also preparing food. But Iksun was there before Andy. I was eating, drinking and chatting along with Khairil and others. Andy accidentally spilled hot water on the the cliff and it flowed down, injuring Dion. But she is alright as she had double layer of pants. Around 0300 hr, I was tired and I headed back to the boy's area to sleep.
24 June 2010
We packed up our stuff and cleaned up the area.We trekked down to a calm stream for a 'short bath'. We trekked straight down after that. We reached the base and the lorry was there once again to pick us up. We went back to the mosque again to have our breakfast and wait for the bus to pick us up. Meanwhile, we changed into dry, clean clothes. I slept during the bus trip. We stopped by a shop selling local foods and I bought one box of biscuit. Queenie, Sze Sze and Leon borrowed money from me because their wallet were in the lower compartment of the bus. We joked about me being a ATM machine. That was funny. Lunch is next after the short shopping. We had burgers. I was not that hungry so I ate a burger only. Sze Sze was correcting my standing posture and Pei Shan was advising me how to correct it. After that, I asked both of them to try on Andy. His facial expression was like priceless. He was like in pain but showing a funny facial expression. Until, Young, Andy and Royston was like lining up for Pei Shan to massage or to see if there is any incorrect posture or injuries. To my surprise, she actually is sensitive. We headed straight campus to unload logistic stuff. We washed the groundsheet. I liked getting sprayed at. There were pizzas and drinks offered by ADC people as it was Melissa's birthday. Queenie, Sze Sze and I stayed back to chat about the expedition.
It is really a great expedition. If there is a chance, I would go for it again! Pictures are uploaded in facebook.
21 June 2010
We were preparing logistic stuff and having team-bonding session. For me, I feel that the people from ADC were rather friendly. We set off in the night to our desinated checkpoint which is a mosque. The mosque's location was near to the location we were trekking. On the way there, we were in high spirit and singing away. Some were resting. For me, I was chatting away with other people.There a movie titled 'How to Train Your Dragon' being played during the trip but it was not in 3D =P
22 June 2010
We reached the mosque at 0400 hrs. We rested for another 2 hours before setting off to the foot of the mountain. I wasn't sleeping and again, I was chatting away. At 0600hrs, we woke up and prepared food. We had mashed egg with bread. For my group, we prepared breakfast and moblie lunch as we are one of the 2 groups to trek up the waterfall source. There was a lorry that picked us up from the mosque to the base of the mountain. It seems that we were supposed to go Jerankang waterfall instead of Berkelah waterfall. When we reached Jerankang waterfall, it seems that it was occupied by the Malaysia NSmen. They appears to be having training and so we travelled to Berkelah waterfall. I heard from the ADC people saying that Jerangkang waterfall is better. But it was occupied, so oh well. Leon and I were in different group but we are in the group that supposed to trek up first. On the way up, it did shower a bit but it did not last long. When we reached the camp site, we set up our parsha (I don't know if it is spelled like this). After that, we trekked up to the waterfall source. It was long but fun when on the way up. The scenary was nice especially the course of the waterfall. We saw pitcher plant and some reptiles as well. We reached the waterfall source after 3 hours or more of trekking. Most of us reached there smoothly but Sherry was not feeling well when close to the waterfall. But she recovered from dipping her feet in the cooling water. We have corns, bread as our lunch. We trekked down to prepare out dinner. We did river tracing. Leon was my partner in river tracing as I do not know how to swim. He helped me a lot. I almost drifted with the current but luckily, Shida stretched out her hand just in time. During the process of river tracing, Leon lost his glasses as well. I managed to grab her hand and get to shore safely. We had a star gazing session at night and a team bonding game as well. I regret that I actually slept during the star-gazing session. But I was really tired and I was awake for the night. I did night sentry duty as well. It was fun as I chatted with people who were on different night sentry duty.
23 June 2010
In the morning, we had a morning dip in the water and played 'Washing machine'. It was so fun especially the person that was being passed got thrown into the river. After that, we went up from our camp site to a gentle river. We played games as well. It is simple but fun. We keep splashing water at the person as he/she loses. So funny. There was a gala night! The theme was 'Flintstone'. It was rather funny but we all enjoyed it. I bumped the wrong person during the skit and the gas lamp toppled. I felt bad back there >< . Again, I did not sleep at night. I went to the sentry area and chatted. Andy was there as well. He cooked food and prepared drinks. Iksun was there as well. He also preparing food. But Iksun was there before Andy. I was eating, drinking and chatting along with Khairil and others. Andy accidentally spilled hot water on the the cliff and it flowed down, injuring Dion. But she is alright as she had double layer of pants. Around 0300 hr, I was tired and I headed back to the boy's area to sleep.
24 June 2010
We packed up our stuff and cleaned up the area.We trekked down to a calm stream for a 'short bath'. We trekked straight down after that. We reached the base and the lorry was there once again to pick us up. We went back to the mosque again to have our breakfast and wait for the bus to pick us up. Meanwhile, we changed into dry, clean clothes. I slept during the bus trip. We stopped by a shop selling local foods and I bought one box of biscuit. Queenie, Sze Sze and Leon borrowed money from me because their wallet were in the lower compartment of the bus. We joked about me being a ATM machine. That was funny. Lunch is next after the short shopping. We had burgers. I was not that hungry so I ate a burger only. Sze Sze was correcting my standing posture and Pei Shan was advising me how to correct it. After that, I asked both of them to try on Andy. His facial expression was like priceless. He was like in pain but showing a funny facial expression. Until, Young, Andy and Royston was like lining up for Pei Shan to massage or to see if there is any incorrect posture or injuries. To my surprise, she actually is sensitive. We headed straight campus to unload logistic stuff. We washed the groundsheet. I liked getting sprayed at. There were pizzas and drinks offered by ADC people as it was Melissa's birthday. Queenie, Sze Sze and I stayed back to chat about the expedition.
It is really a great expedition. If there is a chance, I would go for it again! Pictures are uploaded in facebook.
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