24 July 2010

I'm looking forward to outings next month especially with my working clique. Although they have quited from Fairprice, we still have contact with each other. We are still as close like last time (maybe not for Gladdys). I don't know about her. It appears that there is some issue going and I don't have the full details about it. Since last year, we worked together with each other, hang out with each other. Free and easy. No restrictions at all. We joke, laugh and care each other although we are in different places. Sometimes, outing are organised when one's birthday is closing in. Some of us may not be able to make it for the gathering and instead, they contribute in other ways like gift, wishes and others. To me, it is really the thoughts that counts. It may be a simple outing with simple things and simple gifts but in the end, I appreciate all the thoughts as they really care for me as a friend. I miss those days where we joke at work, disturbing one another and working together. Those days were really AWESOME! The word "awesome" is not really enough to describe it. I'm just using it as an analogy. I remember the times when I met stupid customer and I told them that I would sent the computer screen flying into customer's face. We laughed and had a bit of fun back there. On my birthday, to be honest, I don't mind a simple gathering like dinner as I really hoped to catch up with them in their life. I'm quiting pretty soon as well. Next week would be the last week that I am going to work and it represent the start of my studies. I am going to catch up with all the studies. Now the branch left Nuar and Jin Xiang. Oh well, I will drop by sometime and say hi to them and some of the aunties there who treated very nice. Recently, I found my "long-lost" MP3 player but the ear piece spoiled =.=lll. Crap, I need to get a new one. Haix. Still, the working clique are still the same. Free and easy. Speak freely. This is the way I like best =D

10 July 2010

After yesterday's post, I have been thinking. Wei Keat, since you are tired, sick of it, just leave the clique. Have rest. After you are alright, consider it again. But, I think no need to consider. To prevent it from happening again or history repeating itself, I just stand alone but making friends still. No joining of clique but making friends. This is how I analyse things : When a problem arises, solve it. After solving, think of a prevention. In this case, this is the best prevention. No more stupid gossips around in the clique after I leave. No more this kind of crap happening. There will not be a next time. Leon was like brainwashing me not to leave the clique. Sorry Leon, no can't do. Have to leave. Even I resolve the problem with Guo Wei, still have to leave. I need a break, freedom and beside, it's just leaving the clique only. It's not like we turn into enemy. We may not be that close as before (and I don't think we are that close, since there is gossiping around in the group). I don't want to to face sarcastic people when dealing with issue with requires direct and not beat around the bush communication. At night, I had sent an sms to Cheng Guo Wei saying this, "I'm sorry for not informing you regarding the issue of confronting Lidya. As I hope that honest, unedited words to beard by Lidya. If you feel that there is no sincerity, I apologize again on monday face-to-face. And I believe you heard from Leon that I leaving the clique. I hope that you guys will stay together as a clique as before except that without me. Oce again, I'm sorry. There will not be a second time nor next time. Cya.". This message represents that I have no grudge against Guo Wei. But if he wants to bear the grudge with me, I will not do anything. I will still treat him as normal friends. It will be his business to treat me as a friend or foe. I'm not giving a **** anymore. Leon, I am ALWAYS READY TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO SALVAGE A FRIENDSHIP. I gave up because Guo Wei is not willing to listen. I don't give a **** about pride, diginity if friendship is affected. It's good that Leon, you have see that pride and diginity do kills friendship. Couting down to my freedom..

9 July 2010

 BEFORE YOU READ THIS POST, IF THERE IS ANY THINGS THAT YOU FEEL THAT I SHOULD BE RESPONSIBLE FOR. SAY IT IN FRONT OF ME. I WILL TAKE UP THE *** **** RESPONSIBILITY.
This morning, I told myself to patch back the friendship between Guo Wei and I. I offered to print today's Analytical Biochemistry practical today. I photocopied for Leon, Tsz Ting, Guo Wei and Leon but I printed the wrong manuel. I asked Huda to print for them since she need to use a thumbdrive to print her stuff. In the end, Tsz Ting had her own copy. So I gave to Sherry, Leon, Guo Wei and Lidya. I paid the money back to Niva since it was her who paid for the 4 copies. Guo Wei got the 4 copies and he put it on the desk that I was sitting on in a cold attitude. I told myself, "He is still mad at me, never mind. I should give him some time to think about." Throughout the day, he was cold to me. I was unable to understand. Before the practical, there was an one hour lecture of marketing. After the marketing, I called him but he choose to ignore. Once again, I understand how he feels. Around 1pm, I told Leon, Joshua and Guo Wei that we have a meeting for our marketing project. Leon had Japanese lesson which mean Guo Wei and Joshua are able to attend. They did turned up. However, it was not a good meeting as Guo Wei sharing ideas only to Joshua while I sharing ideas with Guo Wei and Joshua. I was talking to the both of them and Guo Wei was talking softly to Joshua. I can still hear them but it was soft and some parts I did not hear it. In the end, the meeting ended shortly after. I told Joshua to discuss online as Guo Wei was unco-operative. He is mixing his personal and studies together as one issue which means he brings the attitude of the incident to the assignment. That is the reason I ended the meeting. Whatever I say, he will not listen. Yesterday, I sent an sms saying that there is meeting today. IF ANYONE DO NOT WISH TO SEE ME TOMORROW, THEY CAN GO BACK AFTER THE PRACTICAL ENDED AND I WILL NOT REPORT TO THE TEACHER. (I missed out the "me" in the original message). This is because I know that Guo Wei most likely will be still angry after what had happened yesterday afternoon. He turned up and I thought he is fine already, ready to get work. In the end, it was not what I expect. He still not ready for work, in fact he still brings the attitude to the meeting. He just comes for the sake of coming. We are close to or already 18 and he is already 18 for crying out loud! He still cannot separate between work and personal life/friends. The meeting is to discuss the assignment, NOT TO SHOW YOUR F***ING ATTITUDE FROM YOUR PERSONAL LIFE OR TO SHOW YOUR UNHAPPINESS TOWARDS ME. WHEN IT IS WORK, TALK ABOUT WORK ONLY. WHEN IT IS PERSONAL LIFESTYLE, WE TALK ABOUT PERSONAL LIFE STUFF. NOT MIXING EVERY SINGLE S*** INTO ONE BIG F***ING LUMP AND DROP THE F***ING BOMB TO ME! 18 YEARS OLD AND YOU STILL STUBBORN, SORRY I CANNOT TOLERATE THIS KIND OF STUBBORNESS IN WORK. I CANNOT TOLERATE PEOPLE WHO MIX PERSONAL AND WORK. But for Guo Wei, I choose to believe it is only for a moment. I believe that he remove his cold attitude towards me and we can be friends again. When i talked to him earlier on the meeting, he told me, 'I regretted saving you back then.' Back to the hamster issue, it was Guo Wei who first told me about it, followed by Lidya. Back then, Guo Wei told he felt that I have the right to know what is going on. SAME GOES HERE! Lidya have the right to know about what is being talked about her behind her back. SIMPLE AS THAT. IF YOU THINK I TRYING TO SABOTAGE YOUR FRIENDSHIP WITH LIDYA, YOU ARE NOT MY FRIEND. LIDYA, LEON AND TSZ TING UNDERSTAND ESPECIALLY LIDYA WHO UNDERSTAND ME TOTALLY. Then again, if you had told her how you feel, would this happen? WOULD IT? Instead of telling another person, tell it straight into the person's face. Simple? Yes? If you got the guts, say it straight it the face of that person. IF YOU ARE UNHAPPY WITH ME, SAY IT OUT LOUD IN FRONT OF ME. The way I see now and I can describe it with one word: CHILDISH. We are already young adults, we can talk it out and you choose to show your F***ING childish attitude to me. Wow, maybe you should go back to primary school. You got a mouth, why not talk to me? EVEN IF I TALK TO YOU, WOULD YOU EVEN LISTEN A SINGLE D*** THING INTO YOUR F***ING HEAD? WOULD YOU? CAUSE YOU ARE JUST F***ING TOO STUBBORN! BESIDE STUBBORN, YOU ARE PETTY AS WELL CAUSE YOU BEAR GRUDGES WITH PEOPLE. Enough saying. I'm tired. I'm sick of it. I don't want to join ANY F***ING CLIQUE ANYMORE! I'M BETTER OFF THAN ALONE. AND YES, I REFERING TO CHENG GUO WEI FROM MB0903 WITH THE ADMIN NUMBER OF 094357H. NO MORE F***ING GUESSING GAME! F*** THIS ****

26 June 2010

Just came back from expedition not long, problems already started arising. It was the grouping for HACCP project. There was a miscommunication but it was solved. The miscommunication was the not main problem. It appears that there are issues with one particular person. I will not mention names here. Yup. Still, I insisted on my decision. Firstly, I will try to think of others before me. Second, once I made up my mind, save your effort in changing my decision. I will not change my decision. It was rather saddening that so many people have issue with this person yet they do not speak up. We are all friends, we should communicate better with each other compared to others. If there is any issue/problem/unhappiness, we should have a nice talk with each other and not hiding feelings to themselves. Let's think about it. In a long run, that person may know and get hurt. Why? Cause that person's best friend/clique actually is not happy with him/her but they do not speak up. Worse still, they say it to others and she get to know it later. The meaning of having friends is to help one another, accepting one's flaws and strength, speaking freely when in a clique. When I first heard about it, I felt saddening. I said this a lot of times, "Please say it out if you are unhappy with anything. We are all friends. We are not mind readers, that is why we have a mouth to speak up." I always stress this to my friend. Let it be negative or positive comments, I will still take into consideration and make changes if need to. This is because we are not perfect but we can be a better person. Beside sad, I feel so helpless. Everyone is against one person but I know nothing about it but now. If only I have know it sooner, I can attempt to change their thinking. Since it reach this stage, I will take a step at a time to solve this issue. It may be hard but I believe that it can be solved.

21-24 June 2010

Well, I came back from the expedition last night. Overall, the expedition was fun and at the same time, I learnt and refresh what I have learnt from the previous expedition I went. There are lots of lesson to be learnt from this expedition. New friends were made and I even found my primary school classmate.

21 June 2010
We were preparing logistic stuff and having team-bonding session. For me, I feel that the people from ADC were rather friendly. We set off in the night to our desinated checkpoint which is a mosque. The mosque's location was near to the location we were trekking. On the way there, we were in high spirit and singing away. Some were resting. For me, I was chatting away with other people.There a movie titled 'How to Train Your Dragon' being played during the trip but it was not in 3D =P

22 June 2010
We reached the mosque at 0400 hrs. We rested for another 2 hours before setting off to the foot of the mountain. I wasn't sleeping and again, I was chatting away. At 0600hrs, we woke up and prepared food. We had mashed egg with bread. For my group, we prepared breakfast and moblie lunch as we are one of the 2 groups to trek up the waterfall source. There was a lorry that picked us up from the mosque to the base of the mountain. It seems that we were supposed to go Jerankang waterfall instead of Berkelah waterfall. When we reached Jerankang waterfall, it seems that it was occupied by the Malaysia NSmen. They appears to be having training and so we travelled to Berkelah waterfall. I heard from the ADC people saying that Jerangkang waterfall is better. But it was occupied, so oh well. Leon and I were in different group but we are in the group that supposed to trek up first. On the way up, it did shower a bit but it did not last long. When we reached the camp site, we set up our parsha (I don't know if it is spelled like this). After that, we trekked up to the waterfall source. It was long but fun when on the way up. The scenary was nice especially the course of the waterfall. We saw pitcher plant and some reptiles as well. We reached the waterfall source after 3 hours or more of trekking. Most of us reached there smoothly but Sherry was not feeling well when close to the waterfall. But she recovered from dipping her feet in the cooling water. We have corns, bread as our lunch. We trekked down to prepare out dinner. We did river tracing. Leon was my partner in river tracing as I do not know how to swim. He helped me a lot. I almost drifted with the current but luckily, Shida stretched out her hand just in time. During the process of river tracing, Leon lost his glasses as well. I managed to grab her hand and get to shore safely. We had a star gazing session at night and a team bonding game as well. I regret that I actually slept during the star-gazing session. But I was really tired and I was awake for the night. I did night sentry duty as well. It was fun as I chatted with people who were on different night sentry duty.

23 June 2010
In the morning, we had a morning dip in the water and played 'Washing machine'. It was so fun especially the person that was being passed got thrown into the river. After that, we went up from our camp site to a gentle river. We played games as well. It is simple but fun. We keep splashing water at the person as he/she loses. So funny. There was a gala night! The theme was 'Flintstone'. It was rather funny but we all enjoyed it. I bumped the wrong person during the skit and the gas lamp toppled. I felt bad back there >< . Again, I did not sleep at night. I went to the sentry area and chatted. Andy was there as well. He cooked food and prepared drinks. Iksun was there as well. He also preparing food. But Iksun was there before Andy. I was eating, drinking and chatting along with Khairil and others. Andy accidentally spilled hot water on the the cliff and it flowed down, injuring Dion. But she is alright as she had double layer of pants. Around 0300 hr, I was tired and I headed back to the boy's area to sleep.

24 June 2010
We packed up our stuff and cleaned up the area.We trekked down to a calm stream for a 'short bath'. We trekked straight down after that. We reached the base and the lorry was there once again to pick us up. We went back to the mosque again to have our breakfast and wait for the bus to pick us up. Meanwhile, we changed into dry, clean clothes. I slept during the bus trip. We stopped by a shop selling local foods and I bought one box of biscuit. Queenie, Sze Sze and Leon borrowed money from me because their wallet were in the lower compartment of the bus. We joked about me being a ATM machine. That was funny. Lunch is next after the short shopping. We had burgers. I was not that hungry so I ate a burger only. Sze Sze was correcting my standing posture and Pei Shan was advising me how to correct it. After that, I asked both of them to try on Andy. His facial expression was like priceless. He was like in pain but showing a funny facial expression. Until, Young, Andy and Royston was like lining up for Pei Shan to massage or to see if there is any incorrect posture or injuries. To my surprise, she actually is sensitive. We headed straight campus to unload logistic stuff. We washed the groundsheet. I liked getting sprayed at. There were pizzas and drinks offered by ADC people as it was Melissa's birthday. Queenie, Sze Sze and I stayed back to chat about the expedition.

It is really a great expedition. If there is a chance, I would go for it again! Pictures are uploaded in facebook.

16 June 2010

Back to post! I have just added 2 new song to my music player on the right. Pyramid by Charice and Until You Were Gone by Chipmunk. Both songs are pretty catchy. Hope you will like it. 

Today was the due date of Analytical Biochemistry. I was relieved that the assignment was done with the help of other members. I think this got to be the best group I had ever work with. Full corporation, straight-forward, no hidden opinion. It's good to have this kind of group as it makes the work done much faster. A BIG THANK YOU to you guys! You guys have worked hard, Thanks! Now left, MBT and Industrial Microbiology project is left. MBT, I hope that it all turns out well. Hoping and believing...

As for Industrial Microbiology, the group can be only consist of 5. The clique is 6 which means one have to join other groups. In my mind, I'm ready to let the other 5 stay as a team while I join other group. For the past one year, it was always Joshua that joined other group which I feel that it is unfair. It is always him. So this time, I will be the one joining other group.

COMMON TEST IS COMING. So is the expedition. I'm so looking forward to the expedition but not common test =X Haha. It has been two year since I trekked Mt. Belumut which is about 1010 metre tall. Here is a URL on Mt. Belumut : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mount_Belumut. I trekked this mountain when I was secondary 2 and as a NCC member. I still can remembered the trekking process. I'm a nature lover actually soI like this kind of activities. I am not going alone as Leon, Sherry, Fara and Queenie are going as well. There had been 2 days of bonding session. I made new friends as well. Bottom line is I'M SO EXCITED AND LOOKING FORWARD TO THE EXPEDITION xD This time, we will be trekking Berkelah Waterfalls. I did a bit of research on it: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Berkelah_falls and http://www.waterfallsofmalaysia.com/Nfalls/txn19bkld.htm 

Seems to be nice =)

8 June 2009

Nice cooling weather to start off the day. Apparently, I was lazing on my bed for few minutes before I wake up. So cooling.. I was still half asleep when I was having my breakfast. Luckily, I got my coffee to keep me warm and awake.

The Molecular Biology and Technique (MBT) practical follow-up was a disappointment. It turned out that none of my classmate has their cells glowing in the dark. Still, our agar plate have sign of growth on it. For 7 weeks, we have been working on it. Taking all the precaution, still we failed >< . Oh well, just forget about it.

Stupid Analytical Biochemistry (ABC) assignment is due soon, this Friday. My group is almost done, just left with my research area and the video. The video gave quite a bit of problem but it was solved. No potential problem seems to be ahead of us. Hope that it turn out fine.

I went home by taking bus 76 and I actually overshot my stop. Well, I was sleeping on the bus. So tired this few days... Zzz