26 Feb 2010

As usual, I blog about QQ (name of the hamster that I found). I observed that it is starting to get weaker. Sometimes, it even kind of in a daze with it's stomach facing up. Condition does not look too good for QQ. Also, I would like to say thanks to my friends who offered to bring it to a vet. I was thinking to share cost with someone because my Minister of Finance (my mum) disagree that I should bring it to a vet since it may die sooner or later. I understand her point of view. Still, I spoke to her about splitting the cost and she seems to have no objection.... If you wondering what is QQ doing right now, usual stuff like jumping up in attempt to get out of the box and scratching itself. Not to mention, curling of itself. Sometimes, it jumped till it's stomach facing up...

25 Feb 2010

Yo people, I am back to blog just a short while. Taking a break from studies. First to blog about is QQ. I noticed that it wants to be free as it keep jumping up and down in the box in attempt to escape I guess. Also, it chewed up the corner of the newspaper which I used it for bedding. Does hamsters have this behavior or is it just only QQ? Some photos of it... One photos appears to be that QQ is curious with my handphone's camera. Laugh out loud.

 

Now about me, I finally submitted my cadet officer course form. WOOT! I seen the Director. He seems to be a nice person. His assistant is also a nice person as well. From the Director, it seems that I am not the first one who need his endorsement. Hmmm, if that's the case, I wonder why NYP don't have NCC as one of the CCA. I do see NPCC is one of them. Never mind, at least i submitted the form, just that short of O Level Certificate and NAFA certificate. Oh well, I submit to them after my test is over =D. Cya guys around and take care

24 Feb 2010

Last night, my friend, Jin Xuan, asked me what is the name of the hamster. I replied her that I did not give it a name. So on the spot, I thought of a name, 'QQ'. Laugh out loud, what a name for a hamster. As usual, QQ still running around in the box, trying to look for a way to get out of the box. Just curious, does hamster drink water at all? Cause QQ has not been drinking water for about 1 and a half days already. So I am not sure if that is ok but I do know living things need water. I also notice one thing, QQ sometimes would just sit at a corner and start to 'emo'. How cute is that?

Back to me, I don't think anyone would be interest. Semester exam. 5 papers, 2 down and 3 to go. Next Tuesday is the last paper. WOOT. FREEDOM! I finally can have a good rest after next Tuesday. I was pretty busy as I have to get the Director of School of Chemical & Life Science (LS) to sign my form. I got the call from Ms Tan and I went to secondary school to take the form. I rushed to NYP to look for the Director of NYP to sign my form. I hand the form over to the Student Administration Office and headed back home. One hour later, I received a call from the Student Administration Office saying that I need to submit to the School of Chemical & Life Science Administration Office. Once again, I went back to NYP again. Bad news, the Administration Office at School of Chemical & Life Science was closed due to some event. Guess have to come back tomorrow. Sigh... All well. Hopefully I can get it sign by tomorrow as tomorrow is the deadline. 

23 Feb 2010

Last night, I found a hamster in a small drain. I tried to catch and thought it is not scare of us. In the end, I have to sort of chase it a bit. It ran away when i almost touch it's head. I took it home after i caught it.When I reached home, I realized this little guy here has a tumor on it's right side of the body.  The size of the tumor is about 1/4 of it's size. The tumor is causing this fellow here a little bit walking problem.  Today, I just fed it with sunflower seeds as last night. Most of the shop were closed so have to wait till today. Due to restriction, I am unable to bring it to a vet. This makes me even more guilty than ever. Just to show you the hamster with the tumor, I taken a picture of it. As you can see, the red portion is the tumor I am referring to. Worse still, there is a small yellowish opening which I think that may have make things worse. And finding it in a small drain is not a good thing as there are bacteria and virus in the drain that may worse the situation. Poor guy. Right now, it is staying in my house and it is safe and sound for now.

18 Feb 2010

Heyo people, I just came back from Malaysia. Although this year reunion is quite quiet due to some money issue and money-faced people, they didn't bother to come back. Oh well, the world is much better without them around. This time round, there is internet connection at my mum's hometown. HURRAY! I played Warcraft 3, Maplestory and surfed the net there. I used the wireless connection so that I can switch on the air-con in my room and use my laptop. I have 2 cousins over there. One seemed to remain the same size and the other one seems to be grown much taller since the last time I saw her. One of my relative seems to have problems with the liver as his eye white seems to be yellow. Once I completed my university (if I ever enter), I shall go back and treat them like how they treat my relative and my mum. I will make them pay back. They think they have capable sons and daughters and they show people attitude. Well, Singapore currency change to Malaysia currency seems to be twice. I shall pawn them with that. Bully my relative, I will make you guys pay.  You guys wait and see....

7 Feb 2010

Zhi Yuan, I really appreciate your help but then it will works to a certain extent only. Although time can cure most illness, it also means certain things WILL BE THERE FOREVER when it is keep happening until it just scar there. A small cut leave no scar but a major cut leave a scar for LIFE. For how long I have been keeping every single shit in me, I wanted to say out but I just can't find the right person. Leave alone the closest person to me who have been offensive for like how long when i wanted to share things with her. As time passes by and things stay the same, it turns to a habit. There is a saying in Chinese says that 'A leopard never change it's spot'. Something like that. True, it is hard to change a habit. Blog has been the way for me to vent out my feeling, frustration, anger, sadness and other feelings. I am not having a grudge against her or what. I am just giving up already. I did talk to her but failed. So I gave up as I did not see any point in continuing to talk to her. From the time I gave up until now, I have been blogging. So blog is like my relative. Although it will not talk to you or feedback to you, AT LEAST IT TAKE IN WHAT I TYPE. At least my friends are better, they listened and provide constructive suggestion. The main thing is listening. The power of listening can allow others to feel better. THAT'S WHY GOD GAVE US 2 EAR AND NOT 2 MOUTH FOR CRYING OUT LOUD SAKE. Nope, she did not get that. Right now, I only can talk to her about daily stuff and not personal stuff. NO SHIT MAN! She can forget about getting in to my freaking personal life. NO WAY! NOT IN THIS LIFE. This is because I am taking precaution to prevent the freaking history to repeats itself again. No way, I don't want this kind of shit to happen again. No no no. The way I let things out is through music, blog and facebook. If things need to be said out, I will either go to my gang or my friends in campus. Usually gang more. Especially the guys in the gang. I am officially shutting her out of my personal world and letting her in my daily life. Thanks for being there for me gang and my friends... Really, I appreciate it a lot till no words can describe it. Although I may be neutral in my facial expression, but I really appreciate it in my heart. She may be crying when she talking to my close friend but what about me? WHAT ABOUT ME!?!?! I can't cry for I have no tears to cry anymore. I did not even shed a freaking tear when my grandmother died. I can't shout it out cause I will disturb other and some may even think I am crazy. I can't cut myself for I am the only child. I can't end my life cause I haven't repay my mother who have been raising me up for so long. SO MANY RESTRICTION!!! So I just kept it to myself. Imagine someone hurt you until you are so afraid, would you want it again? OF COURSE NOT, that is why I am isolating myself from her as a precaution. Once bitten, twice shy. She may be the closet to me but then she is like a normal person to me. I even feel more closer with my friends than her. I had given you so much chance but you did not treasure it. I'm sorry.

4 Feb 2010

Recently, Nuar noticed this pattern of me which I listen to either instrumental music as background or just pure instrumental music like piano. There is actually a reason behind it. When I am feeling low, I just play some instrumental music. For example, Apologize by One Republic or Price Of Freedom, Theme song for Final Fantasy Crisis Core. I am able to think it out and let it out silently without even knowing. Last time, I seldom tell my girlfriend about my matters for I do not want them to worry. Same goes to my friends. I believe that they have enough troubles, I do not wish to further stack on it. But if they tell their troubles, I swear this upon my life that I will listen to you. Suren is right in his comment, I do have a problem. But I am going to let it faint away. No joke. Suren, Nuar, Jin Xiang and 2 of my classmate, you know what i meant. Seriously, I think I still insist on my principle (although it may be a problem at the start), liking/loving someone means he/she is happy, as long as she is happy, I will be alright =D

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2 Feb 2010

In just about 2 day's time, it will be 16 years already. Time flies real fast. What's left is only his photos and no memories in my brain. Photos of him carrying me when I was young. Fate do knows how to play mean tricks on people. By comparing with other people, I believe I have one word short in my brain for I never had a chance to use it. I am so envy of others. I am going to be moodless for the next 2 days....

1 Feb 2010

Right now, I just want to work my head off. Sometimes, I feel this gap with my friends in my class. I have nothing to say much. Leon, Guo Wei and sometimes chat about games, I know not much about games. They sometimes talk about school work, I knew nothing about it cause I didn't study. So I have nothing much to say. I just listen to them and reply when needed. Otherwise, I will be shooting Leon. Sometimes I do feel bad about it as I feel the jokes i cracked may be overboard. I scare of offending them. I rather make friends than enemy. They have no problem, I guess problem lies with me. With the people in MB, I don't have much too say but on the other hand with PS people, I have no problem starting a conversation. This is the main reason I had been sitting with PS for some time. He Xiang, Andrew, Jun An and Sheng Yang, I have no problem starting a conversation with them. I can study with them as well. I am just more comfortable with them as compared to my classmate. Weird but true. I am comfortable to ask question with the PS people as compared to my classmate....