31 Dec 2010
Last day of 2010. Not much to post about. The incident happened close to one month ago. The impact was strong and till now, I still the side effects of it. It totally shaked me off track seriously. Meanwhile, what I can do is to hope and pray. As my friend told me: "What's yours in life shall not be taken away from you", these words somehow give me hope and install fear in me as well. Quite contradicting.. Well, 2010 is a closed chapter once it pasts 12.00am. A new chapter awaits, a new year starting with a bang. I hope everything will turn out smoothly for everyone adn all the best for them...
19 Dec 2010
Verse 1:
The last that ever she saw him, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
He passed on worried and warning, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
Lost in a riddle that Saturday night, far away on the other side,
he was caught in the middle of a desperate fight, and she couldn't find how to push through.
Verse 2:
The trees that whisper in the evening, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
Sing the song of sorrow and grieving, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
All she saw was a silhouette of a gun, far away on the other side,
He was shot six times by a man on the run, and she couldn't find how to push through.
Bridge:
I stay, I pray, I see you in heaven far away,
I stay, I pray, I see you in heaven one day.
Verse 3:
Four a.m. in the morning, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
I watched your vision forming, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
Star was glowin' in a silvery night, far away on the other side,
Will you come to talk to me this night, but she couldn't find how to push through.
Bridge:
I stay, I pray, I see you in heaven far away,
I stay, I pray, I see you in heaven one day.
This is the lyrics for the song "Moonlight Shadow" which I have been listening to it over and over again for the past few days... Apparently, there are different version but I like this version the best. The tune is representing the emotions that I am feeling now...
Youtube: Moonlight Shadow by Groove Coverage
The last that ever she saw him, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
He passed on worried and warning, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
Lost in a riddle that Saturday night, far away on the other side,
he was caught in the middle of a desperate fight, and she couldn't find how to push through.
Verse 2:
The trees that whisper in the evening, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
Sing the song of sorrow and grieving, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
All she saw was a silhouette of a gun, far away on the other side,
He was shot six times by a man on the run, and she couldn't find how to push through.
Bridge:
I stay, I pray, I see you in heaven far away,
I stay, I pray, I see you in heaven one day.
Verse 3:
Four a.m. in the morning, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
I watched your vision forming, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
Star was glowin' in a silvery night, far away on the other side,
Will you come to talk to me this night, but she couldn't find how to push through.
Bridge:
I stay, I pray, I see you in heaven far away,
I stay, I pray, I see you in heaven one day.
This is the lyrics for the song "Moonlight Shadow" which I have been listening to it over and over again for the past few days... Apparently, there are different version but I like this version the best. The tune is representing the emotions that I am feeling now...
Youtube: Moonlight Shadow by Groove Coverage
18 Dec 2010
I went out with my mum to Nex shopping mall this morning and at the same time, I went to settled my ATM card because of my mistake. The other day I lost my wallet and I cancelled my ATM card. They sent a new ATM card to me along with my new pin which is a seperated letter. When I went to activate the card, I didn't check and as a result, the new card is also blocked. Best joke. After that, my mum and I went to Nex to do some window shopping. I saw there is a G2000 store and quickly went in to check it out. I saw this black tie.. I like it seriously, I don't really like my clothes to have so many patterns on it. I prefer it simple. There were a few formal wear that caught my attention as well... Haha... Next, we went to Fairprice and bought some stuff. Then we both came across the wine section, I was like "Hmmm, I had never try white wine yet. All along, I was drinking red white.". I asked my mum if we could buy one bottle of white wine and she agreed. We ended up buying one bottle of white wine and one bottle of red wine XD WEE~ Hehe... I shall strike the white wine first.
11 Dec 2010
Recently, I watched a movie called 'The Sister's Keeper'. The main plot is whereby a girl name Kate was suffering acute promyelocytic leukemia, a cancer of the blood and bone marrow. In order to save Kate, the parents decided to 'genetically engineered' a child. This child name Anna. From birth, Anna has been dontaing bone marrow, blood and umbilical cord to keep Kate alive. Till the age of 13, Anna was required to donate one of her kidney to keep her alive. However, once Anna donate her kidney, she might not be able to lead a normal life like playing soccer and be a mother. Anna filed for medical emancipation which will protect Anna from any transplant of her body parts. Of course, her mother was in rage and both of them fought the case in court. In the end, Anna won. During the trials, Anna had memory flashback of how close she was with her sister. Along the trials, a saddening truth unfolded. It turned out that Kate was the one who told Anna to filed for medical emancipation as Kate did not want to live any longer. Kate knew that Sara, her mum would not listen nor accept Kate's request. So Kate asked Anna to file for it. Sara broke into tears as she did not want to lose Kate.
While I was watching, I have these thoughts: 'How did my mum and dad feel when both of them were told that my dad had colorectal cancer', 'How did my mum feel when my dad moved on?' and others. Most of the question or thoughts was mainly revolved around my dad's cancer, my dad and my mum. While I was watching and thinking about those, I can't help it but to let a few tears dropped. It has been a long time since a tear dropped from my eye. I really miss him even though I have not much memories of him. The main reason I took this course and choosen the R&D track is to join the fight against cancer. One of my personal goals is to prevent family from suffering/breaking up by cancer. After watching this movie, I was more motivated to work hard to work towards my goals.
While I was watching, I have these thoughts: 'How did my mum and dad feel when both of them were told that my dad had colorectal cancer', 'How did my mum feel when my dad moved on?' and others. Most of the question or thoughts was mainly revolved around my dad's cancer, my dad and my mum. While I was watching and thinking about those, I can't help it but to let a few tears dropped. It has been a long time since a tear dropped from my eye. I really miss him even though I have not much memories of him. The main reason I took this course and choosen the R&D track is to join the fight against cancer. One of my personal goals is to prevent family from suffering/breaking up by cancer. After watching this movie, I was more motivated to work hard to work towards my goals.
19 Nov 2010
Today was pretty bad... After lecture, I had lunch with my secondary school junior and one of them is freaking violent. She keep kick me and whack me. Then I was having a slight headache still go whack my head. That one really made me a bit angry. I showed her a serious look and told her that I having headache and ask her to stop hitting my head. Of course, she was scared and said yes. Not that I bully her, she is easily scared.
Then I went up to their "classroom" to play Dota with Avery and others. Avery got killed pretty badly. His record was only 6 death and more than 10 deaths. I thought he was good but apparently, not really. We have fun. I headed off to meet some friends and when I was on the way, I felt the dull pain in my chest. Most probably is the heart again. I felt like I was being stunned or something, did not feel the pulse at that second. 3 times, it happen today. Troublesome heart...
Then I went up to their "classroom" to play Dota with Avery and others. Avery got killed pretty badly. His record was only 6 death and more than 10 deaths. I thought he was good but apparently, not really. We have fun. I headed off to meet some friends and when I was on the way, I felt the dull pain in my chest. Most probably is the heart again. I felt like I was being stunned or something, did not feel the pulse at that second. 3 times, it happen today. Troublesome heart...
11 Nov 2010
I am not in pretty good mood.. I shall keep the post short. The girl I liked recently broke up and I confessed to her... Best part is that she patch up with her ex-boyfriend today. That totally send me crashing down. I got high hopes for this and fell pretty badly. What a plunge.. Ouch? Yeap... Definitely ouch to the max. I really like her.. Things just didn't work out..
My god sister is also feeling down. But I didn't let her know cause she got enough. I comforted her and let her rest on my shoulder. At the same time, I gently rested on her and comforted both of us at the same time. Seeing her cry is like wrenching my heart... Then in the end, she stopped crying and felt better. I was still disappointed and still calming myself down. Relationship... Next time..
My god sister is also feeling down. But I didn't let her know cause she got enough. I comforted her and let her rest on my shoulder. At the same time, I gently rested on her and comforted both of us at the same time. Seeing her cry is like wrenching my heart... Then in the end, she stopped crying and felt better. I was still disappointed and still calming myself down. Relationship... Next time..
14 August 2010
People may think that drills is tough. But to me, it is a way to move smartly on parade ground and show the pride of wearing the uniform. Let it be the No. 4 uniform (Army Land combat uniform) or the No. 1 uniform (White formal uniform), movements must be smart to bring out the pride and smartness. The recent National Day Parade or as always, movements are smart.It totally brings the 'wow' out from the people who are watching the parade. When I teach my juniors about drills, whether it is arm drills or stationary drills, I will make sure they do it with smartness otherwise will be repeat. During secondary school, I was glad that I was able to attend the Advanced Drill Course (ADC). Then again, I kind of forget some. Luckily, there is a refresher course after I become an officer. I will definitely make sure my cadets able to carry out every single drill properly and smartly just like national day parade.
Random post =P
Random post =P
11 August 2010
The past few days was pretty AWESOME! YEA PEOPLE! AWESOME! NDP parade in secondary school have a new history written by NCC! National Day Observation Ceremony was a great success! It was so successful to the extend that the citizen actually take photo with the cadets in No. 1 uniform. My secondary school have 2 runner in the YOG torch relay. Much things going on secondary school XD. New friends were made during these events. Relationship between UG is definitely better than last time.
Exam is coming. Let's put aside exam first. I have recently got a few new targets.
Targets:
- Learn how to swim (so I can enjoy water sports as well!)
-Play an accoustic guitar (Music is what calms me down and allowing me to express my emotions freely)
-Gym to keep myself fit (last time, don't really gym much or rather rarely.)
-Learn Apologize (One Republic), Superman (Five for Fighting), Price of Freedom (Takeharu Ishimoto) and other song that comes into my mind.
-Study hard for exam to pursue my dreams
Sheesh, I guess I am too random. Blog next time. Cya around =D
Exam is coming. Let's put aside exam first. I have recently got a few new targets.
Targets:
- Learn how to swim (so I can enjoy water sports as well!)
-Play an accoustic guitar (Music is what calms me down and allowing me to express my emotions freely)
-Gym to keep myself fit (last time, don't really gym much or rather rarely.)
-Learn Apologize (One Republic), Superman (Five for Fighting), Price of Freedom (Takeharu Ishimoto) and other song that comes into my mind.
-Study hard for exam to pursue my dreams
Sheesh, I guess I am too random. Blog next time. Cya around =D
30 July 2010
I had one hour of marketing lecture and 1.5 hours of practical test. I was so freaking sleepy during the lecture. It was partly due to the cold weather in the morning and the lecture was boring as usual. Followed by Analytical Biochemistry practical test, I was pretty nervous. Niva, who was in front of me, told me that my movement was pretty 'automated'. I screwed the practical test. I actually mistook the Bradford reagent as the BSA. But lucky, I managed to work my way out in the end. I re-calculated the remaining Bradford reagent that is supposed to be added and added into the eppendorf tube. The result seems to be ok as the standards solution shows an increasing absorbance reading which it is supposed to be. It appears that I was not the only one that make the mistake. But overall, it was ok. Joke of the day~!
24 July 2010
I'm looking forward to outings next month especially with my working clique. Although they have quited from Fairprice, we still have contact with each other. We are still as close like last time (maybe not for Gladdys). I don't know about her. It appears that there is some issue going and I don't have the full details about it. Since last year, we worked together with each other, hang out with each other. Free and easy. No restrictions at all. We joke, laugh and care each other although we are in different places. Sometimes, outing are organised when one's birthday is closing in. Some of us may not be able to make it for the gathering and instead, they contribute in other ways like gift, wishes and others. To me, it is really the thoughts that counts. It may be a simple outing with simple things and simple gifts but in the end, I appreciate all the thoughts as they really care for me as a friend. I miss those days where we joke at work, disturbing one another and working together. Those days were really AWESOME! The word "awesome" is not really enough to describe it. I'm just using it as an analogy. I remember the times when I met stupid customer and I told them that I would sent the computer screen flying into customer's face. We laughed and had a bit of fun back there. On my birthday, to be honest, I don't mind a simple gathering like dinner as I really hoped to catch up with them in their life. I'm quiting pretty soon as well. Next week would be the last week that I am going to work and it represent the start of my studies. I am going to catch up with all the studies. Now the branch left Nuar and Jin Xiang. Oh well, I will drop by sometime and say hi to them and some of the aunties there who treated very nice. Recently, I found my "long-lost" MP3 player but the ear piece spoiled =.=lll. Crap, I need to get a new one. Haix. Still, the working clique are still the same. Free and easy. Speak freely. This is the way I like best =D
10 July 2010
After yesterday's post, I have been thinking. Wei Keat, since you are tired, sick of it, just leave the clique. Have rest. After you are alright, consider it again. But, I think no need to consider. To prevent it from happening again or history repeating itself, I just stand alone but making friends still. No joining of clique but making friends. This is how I analyse things : When a problem arises, solve it. After solving, think of a prevention. In this case, this is the best prevention. No more stupid gossips around in the clique after I leave. No more this kind of crap happening. There will not be a next time. Leon was like brainwashing me not to leave the clique. Sorry Leon, no can't do. Have to leave. Even I resolve the problem with Guo Wei, still have to leave. I need a break, freedom and beside, it's just leaving the clique only. It's not like we turn into enemy. We may not be that close as before (and I don't think we are that close, since there is gossiping around in the group). I don't want to to face sarcastic people when dealing with issue with requires direct and not beat around the bush communication. At night, I had sent an sms to Cheng Guo Wei saying this, "I'm sorry for not informing you regarding the issue of confronting Lidya. As I hope that honest, unedited words to beard by Lidya. If you feel that there is no sincerity, I apologize again on monday face-to-face. And I believe you heard from Leon that I leaving the clique. I hope that you guys will stay together as a clique as before except that without me. Oce again, I'm sorry. There will not be a second time nor next time. Cya.". This message represents that I have no grudge against Guo Wei. But if he wants to bear the grudge with me, I will not do anything. I will still treat him as normal friends. It will be his business to treat me as a friend or foe. I'm not giving a **** anymore. Leon, I am ALWAYS READY TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO SALVAGE A FRIENDSHIP. I gave up because Guo Wei is not willing to listen. I don't give a **** about pride, diginity if friendship is affected. It's good that Leon, you have see that pride and diginity do kills friendship. Couting down to my freedom..
9 July 2010
BEFORE YOU READ THIS POST, IF THERE IS ANY THINGS THAT YOU FEEL THAT I SHOULD BE RESPONSIBLE FOR. SAY IT IN FRONT OF ME. I WILL TAKE UP THE *** **** RESPONSIBILITY.
This morning, I told myself to patch back the friendship between Guo Wei and I. I offered to print today's Analytical Biochemistry practical today. I photocopied for Leon, Tsz Ting, Guo Wei and Leon but I printed the wrong manuel. I asked Huda to print for them since she need to use a thumbdrive to print her stuff. In the end, Tsz Ting had her own copy. So I gave to Sherry, Leon, Guo Wei and Lidya. I paid the money back to Niva since it was her who paid for the 4 copies. Guo Wei got the 4 copies and he put it on the desk that I was sitting on in a cold attitude. I told myself, "He is still mad at me, never mind. I should give him some time to think about." Throughout the day, he was cold to me. I was unable to understand. Before the practical, there was an one hour lecture of marketing. After the marketing, I called him but he choose to ignore. Once again, I understand how he feels. Around 1pm, I told Leon, Joshua and Guo Wei that we have a meeting for our marketing project. Leon had Japanese lesson which mean Guo Wei and Joshua are able to attend. They did turned up. However, it was not a good meeting as Guo Wei sharing ideas only to Joshua while I sharing ideas with Guo Wei and Joshua. I was talking to the both of them and Guo Wei was talking softly to Joshua. I can still hear them but it was soft and some parts I did not hear it. In the end, the meeting ended shortly after. I told Joshua to discuss online as Guo Wei was unco-operative. He is mixing his personal and studies together as one issue which means he brings the attitude of the incident to the assignment. That is the reason I ended the meeting. Whatever I say, he will not listen. Yesterday, I sent an sms saying that there is meeting today. IF ANYONE DO NOT WISH TO SEE ME TOMORROW, THEY CAN GO BACK AFTER THE PRACTICAL ENDED AND I WILL NOT REPORT TO THE TEACHER. (I missed out the "me" in the original message). This is because I know that Guo Wei most likely will be still angry after what had happened yesterday afternoon. He turned up and I thought he is fine already, ready to get work. In the end, it was not what I expect. He still not ready for work, in fact he still brings the attitude to the meeting. He just comes for the sake of coming. We are close to or already 18 and he is already 18 for crying out loud! He still cannot separate between work and personal life/friends. The meeting is to discuss the assignment, NOT TO SHOW YOUR F***ING ATTITUDE FROM YOUR PERSONAL LIFE OR TO SHOW YOUR UNHAPPINESS TOWARDS ME. WHEN IT IS WORK, TALK ABOUT WORK ONLY. WHEN IT IS PERSONAL LIFESTYLE, WE TALK ABOUT PERSONAL LIFE STUFF. NOT MIXING EVERY SINGLE S*** INTO ONE BIG F***ING LUMP AND DROP THE F***ING BOMB TO ME! 18 YEARS OLD AND YOU STILL STUBBORN, SORRY I CANNOT TOLERATE THIS KIND OF STUBBORNESS IN WORK. I CANNOT TOLERATE PEOPLE WHO MIX PERSONAL AND WORK. But for Guo Wei, I choose to believe it is only for a moment. I believe that he remove his cold attitude towards me and we can be friends again. When i talked to him earlier on the meeting, he told me, 'I regretted saving you back then.' Back to the hamster issue, it was Guo Wei who first told me about it, followed by Lidya. Back then, Guo Wei told he felt that I have the right to know what is going on. SAME GOES HERE! Lidya have the right to know about what is being talked about her behind her back. SIMPLE AS THAT. IF YOU THINK I TRYING TO SABOTAGE YOUR FRIENDSHIP WITH LIDYA, YOU ARE NOT MY FRIEND. LIDYA, LEON AND TSZ TING UNDERSTAND ESPECIALLY LIDYA WHO UNDERSTAND ME TOTALLY. Then again, if you had told her how you feel, would this happen? WOULD IT? Instead of telling another person, tell it straight into the person's face. Simple? Yes? If you got the guts, say it straight it the face of that person. IF YOU ARE UNHAPPY WITH ME, SAY IT OUT LOUD IN FRONT OF ME. The way I see now and I can describe it with one word: CHILDISH. We are already young adults, we can talk it out and you choose to show your F***ING childish attitude to me. Wow, maybe you should go back to primary school. You got a mouth, why not talk to me? EVEN IF I TALK TO YOU, WOULD YOU EVEN LISTEN A SINGLE D*** THING INTO YOUR F***ING HEAD? WOULD YOU? CAUSE YOU ARE JUST F***ING TOO STUBBORN! BESIDE STUBBORN, YOU ARE PETTY AS WELL CAUSE YOU BEAR GRUDGES WITH PEOPLE. Enough saying. I'm tired. I'm sick of it. I don't want to join ANY F***ING CLIQUE ANYMORE! I'M BETTER OFF THAN ALONE. AND YES, I REFERING TO CHENG GUO WEI FROM MB0903 WITH THE ADMIN NUMBER OF 094357H. NO MORE F***ING GUESSING GAME! F*** THIS ****
This morning, I told myself to patch back the friendship between Guo Wei and I. I offered to print today's Analytical Biochemistry practical today. I photocopied for Leon, Tsz Ting, Guo Wei and Leon but I printed the wrong manuel. I asked Huda to print for them since she need to use a thumbdrive to print her stuff. In the end, Tsz Ting had her own copy. So I gave to Sherry, Leon, Guo Wei and Lidya. I paid the money back to Niva since it was her who paid for the 4 copies. Guo Wei got the 4 copies and he put it on the desk that I was sitting on in a cold attitude. I told myself, "He is still mad at me, never mind. I should give him some time to think about." Throughout the day, he was cold to me. I was unable to understand. Before the practical, there was an one hour lecture of marketing. After the marketing, I called him but he choose to ignore. Once again, I understand how he feels. Around 1pm, I told Leon, Joshua and Guo Wei that we have a meeting for our marketing project. Leon had Japanese lesson which mean Guo Wei and Joshua are able to attend. They did turned up. However, it was not a good meeting as Guo Wei sharing ideas only to Joshua while I sharing ideas with Guo Wei and Joshua. I was talking to the both of them and Guo Wei was talking softly to Joshua. I can still hear them but it was soft and some parts I did not hear it. In the end, the meeting ended shortly after. I told Joshua to discuss online as Guo Wei was unco-operative. He is mixing his personal and studies together as one issue which means he brings the attitude of the incident to the assignment. That is the reason I ended the meeting. Whatever I say, he will not listen. Yesterday, I sent an sms saying that there is meeting today. IF ANYONE DO NOT WISH TO SEE ME TOMORROW, THEY CAN GO BACK AFTER THE PRACTICAL ENDED AND I WILL NOT REPORT TO THE TEACHER. (I missed out the "me" in the original message). This is because I know that Guo Wei most likely will be still angry after what had happened yesterday afternoon. He turned up and I thought he is fine already, ready to get work. In the end, it was not what I expect. He still not ready for work, in fact he still brings the attitude to the meeting. He just comes for the sake of coming. We are close to or already 18 and he is already 18 for crying out loud! He still cannot separate between work and personal life/friends. The meeting is to discuss the assignment, NOT TO SHOW YOUR F***ING ATTITUDE FROM YOUR PERSONAL LIFE OR TO SHOW YOUR UNHAPPINESS TOWARDS ME. WHEN IT IS WORK, TALK ABOUT WORK ONLY. WHEN IT IS PERSONAL LIFESTYLE, WE TALK ABOUT PERSONAL LIFE STUFF. NOT MIXING EVERY SINGLE S*** INTO ONE BIG F***ING LUMP AND DROP THE F***ING BOMB TO ME! 18 YEARS OLD AND YOU STILL STUBBORN, SORRY I CANNOT TOLERATE THIS KIND OF STUBBORNESS IN WORK. I CANNOT TOLERATE PEOPLE WHO MIX PERSONAL AND WORK. But for Guo Wei, I choose to believe it is only for a moment. I believe that he remove his cold attitude towards me and we can be friends again. When i talked to him earlier on the meeting, he told me, 'I regretted saving you back then.' Back to the hamster issue, it was Guo Wei who first told me about it, followed by Lidya. Back then, Guo Wei told he felt that I have the right to know what is going on. SAME GOES HERE! Lidya have the right to know about what is being talked about her behind her back. SIMPLE AS THAT. IF YOU THINK I TRYING TO SABOTAGE YOUR FRIENDSHIP WITH LIDYA, YOU ARE NOT MY FRIEND. LIDYA, LEON AND TSZ TING UNDERSTAND ESPECIALLY LIDYA WHO UNDERSTAND ME TOTALLY. Then again, if you had told her how you feel, would this happen? WOULD IT? Instead of telling another person, tell it straight into the person's face. Simple? Yes? If you got the guts, say it straight it the face of that person. IF YOU ARE UNHAPPY WITH ME, SAY IT OUT LOUD IN FRONT OF ME. The way I see now and I can describe it with one word: CHILDISH. We are already young adults, we can talk it out and you choose to show your F***ING childish attitude to me. Wow, maybe you should go back to primary school. You got a mouth, why not talk to me? EVEN IF I TALK TO YOU, WOULD YOU EVEN LISTEN A SINGLE D*** THING INTO YOUR F***ING HEAD? WOULD YOU? CAUSE YOU ARE JUST F***ING TOO STUBBORN! BESIDE STUBBORN, YOU ARE PETTY AS WELL CAUSE YOU BEAR GRUDGES WITH PEOPLE. Enough saying. I'm tired. I'm sick of it. I don't want to join ANY F***ING CLIQUE ANYMORE! I'M BETTER OFF THAN ALONE. AND YES, I REFERING TO CHENG GUO WEI FROM MB0903 WITH THE ADMIN NUMBER OF 094357H. NO MORE F***ING GUESSING GAME! F*** THIS ****
26 June 2010
Just came back from expedition not long, problems already started arising. It was the grouping for HACCP project. There was a miscommunication but it was solved. The miscommunication was the not main problem. It appears that there are issues with one particular person. I will not mention names here. Yup. Still, I insisted on my decision. Firstly, I will try to think of others before me. Second, once I made up my mind, save your effort in changing my decision. I will not change my decision. It was rather saddening that so many people have issue with this person yet they do not speak up. We are all friends, we should communicate better with each other compared to others. If there is any issue/problem/unhappiness, we should have a nice talk with each other and not hiding feelings to themselves. Let's think about it. In a long run, that person may know and get hurt. Why? Cause that person's best friend/clique actually is not happy with him/her but they do not speak up. Worse still, they say it to others and she get to know it later. The meaning of having friends is to help one another, accepting one's flaws and strength, speaking freely when in a clique. When I first heard about it, I felt saddening. I said this a lot of times, "Please say it out if you are unhappy with anything. We are all friends. We are not mind readers, that is why we have a mouth to speak up." I always stress this to my friend. Let it be negative or positive comments, I will still take into consideration and make changes if need to. This is because we are not perfect but we can be a better person. Beside sad, I feel so helpless. Everyone is against one person but I know nothing about it but now. If only I have know it sooner, I can attempt to change their thinking. Since it reach this stage, I will take a step at a time to solve this issue. It may be hard but I believe that it can be solved.
21-24 June 2010
Well, I came back from the expedition last night. Overall, the expedition was fun and at the same time, I learnt and refresh what I have learnt from the previous expedition I went. There are lots of lesson to be learnt from this expedition. New friends were made and I even found my primary school classmate.
21 June 2010
We were preparing logistic stuff and having team-bonding session. For me, I feel that the people from ADC were rather friendly. We set off in the night to our desinated checkpoint which is a mosque. The mosque's location was near to the location we were trekking. On the way there, we were in high spirit and singing away. Some were resting. For me, I was chatting away with other people.There a movie titled 'How to Train Your Dragon' being played during the trip but it was not in 3D =P
22 June 2010
We reached the mosque at 0400 hrs. We rested for another 2 hours before setting off to the foot of the mountain. I wasn't sleeping and again, I was chatting away. At 0600hrs, we woke up and prepared food. We had mashed egg with bread. For my group, we prepared breakfast and moblie lunch as we are one of the 2 groups to trek up the waterfall source. There was a lorry that picked us up from the mosque to the base of the mountain. It seems that we were supposed to go Jerankang waterfall instead of Berkelah waterfall. When we reached Jerankang waterfall, it seems that it was occupied by the Malaysia NSmen. They appears to be having training and so we travelled to Berkelah waterfall. I heard from the ADC people saying that Jerangkang waterfall is better. But it was occupied, so oh well. Leon and I were in different group but we are in the group that supposed to trek up first. On the way up, it did shower a bit but it did not last long. When we reached the camp site, we set up our parsha (I don't know if it is spelled like this). After that, we trekked up to the waterfall source. It was long but fun when on the way up. The scenary was nice especially the course of the waterfall. We saw pitcher plant and some reptiles as well. We reached the waterfall source after 3 hours or more of trekking. Most of us reached there smoothly but Sherry was not feeling well when close to the waterfall. But she recovered from dipping her feet in the cooling water. We have corns, bread as our lunch. We trekked down to prepare out dinner. We did river tracing. Leon was my partner in river tracing as I do not know how to swim. He helped me a lot. I almost drifted with the current but luckily, Shida stretched out her hand just in time. During the process of river tracing, Leon lost his glasses as well. I managed to grab her hand and get to shore safely. We had a star gazing session at night and a team bonding game as well. I regret that I actually slept during the star-gazing session. But I was really tired and I was awake for the night. I did night sentry duty as well. It was fun as I chatted with people who were on different night sentry duty.
23 June 2010
In the morning, we had a morning dip in the water and played 'Washing machine'. It was so fun especially the person that was being passed got thrown into the river. After that, we went up from our camp site to a gentle river. We played games as well. It is simple but fun. We keep splashing water at the person as he/she loses. So funny. There was a gala night! The theme was 'Flintstone'. It was rather funny but we all enjoyed it. I bumped the wrong person during the skit and the gas lamp toppled. I felt bad back there >< . Again, I did not sleep at night. I went to the sentry area and chatted. Andy was there as well. He cooked food and prepared drinks. Iksun was there as well. He also preparing food. But Iksun was there before Andy. I was eating, drinking and chatting along with Khairil and others. Andy accidentally spilled hot water on the the cliff and it flowed down, injuring Dion. But she is alright as she had double layer of pants. Around 0300 hr, I was tired and I headed back to the boy's area to sleep.
24 June 2010
We packed up our stuff and cleaned up the area.We trekked down to a calm stream for a 'short bath'. We trekked straight down after that. We reached the base and the lorry was there once again to pick us up. We went back to the mosque again to have our breakfast and wait for the bus to pick us up. Meanwhile, we changed into dry, clean clothes. I slept during the bus trip. We stopped by a shop selling local foods and I bought one box of biscuit. Queenie, Sze Sze and Leon borrowed money from me because their wallet were in the lower compartment of the bus. We joked about me being a ATM machine. That was funny. Lunch is next after the short shopping. We had burgers. I was not that hungry so I ate a burger only. Sze Sze was correcting my standing posture and Pei Shan was advising me how to correct it. After that, I asked both of them to try on Andy. His facial expression was like priceless. He was like in pain but showing a funny facial expression. Until, Young, Andy and Royston was like lining up for Pei Shan to massage or to see if there is any incorrect posture or injuries. To my surprise, she actually is sensitive. We headed straight campus to unload logistic stuff. We washed the groundsheet. I liked getting sprayed at. There were pizzas and drinks offered by ADC people as it was Melissa's birthday. Queenie, Sze Sze and I stayed back to chat about the expedition.
It is really a great expedition. If there is a chance, I would go for it again! Pictures are uploaded in facebook.
21 June 2010
We were preparing logistic stuff and having team-bonding session. For me, I feel that the people from ADC were rather friendly. We set off in the night to our desinated checkpoint which is a mosque. The mosque's location was near to the location we were trekking. On the way there, we were in high spirit and singing away. Some were resting. For me, I was chatting away with other people.There a movie titled 'How to Train Your Dragon' being played during the trip but it was not in 3D =P
22 June 2010
We reached the mosque at 0400 hrs. We rested for another 2 hours before setting off to the foot of the mountain. I wasn't sleeping and again, I was chatting away. At 0600hrs, we woke up and prepared food. We had mashed egg with bread. For my group, we prepared breakfast and moblie lunch as we are one of the 2 groups to trek up the waterfall source. There was a lorry that picked us up from the mosque to the base of the mountain. It seems that we were supposed to go Jerankang waterfall instead of Berkelah waterfall. When we reached Jerankang waterfall, it seems that it was occupied by the Malaysia NSmen. They appears to be having training and so we travelled to Berkelah waterfall. I heard from the ADC people saying that Jerangkang waterfall is better. But it was occupied, so oh well. Leon and I were in different group but we are in the group that supposed to trek up first. On the way up, it did shower a bit but it did not last long. When we reached the camp site, we set up our parsha (I don't know if it is spelled like this). After that, we trekked up to the waterfall source. It was long but fun when on the way up. The scenary was nice especially the course of the waterfall. We saw pitcher plant and some reptiles as well. We reached the waterfall source after 3 hours or more of trekking. Most of us reached there smoothly but Sherry was not feeling well when close to the waterfall. But she recovered from dipping her feet in the cooling water. We have corns, bread as our lunch. We trekked down to prepare out dinner. We did river tracing. Leon was my partner in river tracing as I do not know how to swim. He helped me a lot. I almost drifted with the current but luckily, Shida stretched out her hand just in time. During the process of river tracing, Leon lost his glasses as well. I managed to grab her hand and get to shore safely. We had a star gazing session at night and a team bonding game as well. I regret that I actually slept during the star-gazing session. But I was really tired and I was awake for the night. I did night sentry duty as well. It was fun as I chatted with people who were on different night sentry duty.
23 June 2010
In the morning, we had a morning dip in the water and played 'Washing machine'. It was so fun especially the person that was being passed got thrown into the river. After that, we went up from our camp site to a gentle river. We played games as well. It is simple but fun. We keep splashing water at the person as he/she loses. So funny. There was a gala night! The theme was 'Flintstone'. It was rather funny but we all enjoyed it. I bumped the wrong person during the skit and the gas lamp toppled. I felt bad back there >< . Again, I did not sleep at night. I went to the sentry area and chatted. Andy was there as well. He cooked food and prepared drinks. Iksun was there as well. He also preparing food. But Iksun was there before Andy. I was eating, drinking and chatting along with Khairil and others. Andy accidentally spilled hot water on the the cliff and it flowed down, injuring Dion. But she is alright as she had double layer of pants. Around 0300 hr, I was tired and I headed back to the boy's area to sleep.
24 June 2010
We packed up our stuff and cleaned up the area.We trekked down to a calm stream for a 'short bath'. We trekked straight down after that. We reached the base and the lorry was there once again to pick us up. We went back to the mosque again to have our breakfast and wait for the bus to pick us up. Meanwhile, we changed into dry, clean clothes. I slept during the bus trip. We stopped by a shop selling local foods and I bought one box of biscuit. Queenie, Sze Sze and Leon borrowed money from me because their wallet were in the lower compartment of the bus. We joked about me being a ATM machine. That was funny. Lunch is next after the short shopping. We had burgers. I was not that hungry so I ate a burger only. Sze Sze was correcting my standing posture and Pei Shan was advising me how to correct it. After that, I asked both of them to try on Andy. His facial expression was like priceless. He was like in pain but showing a funny facial expression. Until, Young, Andy and Royston was like lining up for Pei Shan to massage or to see if there is any incorrect posture or injuries. To my surprise, she actually is sensitive. We headed straight campus to unload logistic stuff. We washed the groundsheet. I liked getting sprayed at. There were pizzas and drinks offered by ADC people as it was Melissa's birthday. Queenie, Sze Sze and I stayed back to chat about the expedition.
It is really a great expedition. If there is a chance, I would go for it again! Pictures are uploaded in facebook.
16 June 2010
Back to post! I have just added 2 new song to my music player on the right. Pyramid by Charice and Until You Were Gone by Chipmunk. Both songs are pretty catchy. Hope you will like it.
Today was the due date of Analytical Biochemistry. I was relieved that the assignment was done with the help of other members. I think this got to be the best group I had ever work with. Full corporation, straight-forward, no hidden opinion. It's good to have this kind of group as it makes the work done much faster. A BIG THANK YOU to you guys! You guys have worked hard, Thanks! Now left, MBT and Industrial Microbiology project is left. MBT, I hope that it all turns out well. Hoping and believing...
As for Industrial Microbiology, the group can be only consist of 5. The clique is 6 which means one have to join other groups. In my mind, I'm ready to let the other 5 stay as a team while I join other group. For the past one year, it was always Joshua that joined other group which I feel that it is unfair. It is always him. So this time, I will be the one joining other group.
COMMON TEST IS COMING. So is the expedition. I'm so looking forward to the expedition but not common test =X Haha. It has been two year since I trekked Mt. Belumut which is about 1010 metre tall. Here is a URL on Mt. Belumut : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mount_Belumut. I trekked this mountain when I was secondary 2 and as a NCC member. I still can remembered the trekking process. I'm a nature lover actually soI like this kind of activities. I am not going alone as Leon, Sherry, Fara and Queenie are going as well. There had been 2 days of bonding session. I made new friends as well. Bottom line is I'M SO EXCITED AND LOOKING FORWARD TO THE EXPEDITION xD This time, we will be trekking Berkelah Waterfalls. I did a bit of research on it: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Berkelah_falls and http://www.waterfallsofmalaysia.com/Nfalls/txn19bkld.htm
Seems to be nice =)
Today was the due date of Analytical Biochemistry. I was relieved that the assignment was done with the help of other members. I think this got to be the best group I had ever work with. Full corporation, straight-forward, no hidden opinion. It's good to have this kind of group as it makes the work done much faster. A BIG THANK YOU to you guys! You guys have worked hard, Thanks! Now left, MBT and Industrial Microbiology project is left. MBT, I hope that it all turns out well. Hoping and believing...
As for Industrial Microbiology, the group can be only consist of 5. The clique is 6 which means one have to join other groups. In my mind, I'm ready to let the other 5 stay as a team while I join other group. For the past one year, it was always Joshua that joined other group which I feel that it is unfair. It is always him. So this time, I will be the one joining other group.
COMMON TEST IS COMING. So is the expedition. I'm so looking forward to the expedition but not common test =X Haha. It has been two year since I trekked Mt. Belumut which is about 1010 metre tall. Here is a URL on Mt. Belumut : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mount_Belumut. I trekked this mountain when I was secondary 2 and as a NCC member. I still can remembered the trekking process. I'm a nature lover actually soI like this kind of activities. I am not going alone as Leon, Sherry, Fara and Queenie are going as well. There had been 2 days of bonding session. I made new friends as well. Bottom line is I'M SO EXCITED AND LOOKING FORWARD TO THE EXPEDITION xD This time, we will be trekking Berkelah Waterfalls. I did a bit of research on it: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Berkelah_falls and http://www.waterfallsofmalaysia.com/Nfalls/txn19bkld.htm
Seems to be nice =)
8 June 2009
Nice cooling weather to start off the day. Apparently, I was lazing on my bed for few minutes before I wake up. So cooling.. I was still half asleep when I was having my breakfast. Luckily, I got my coffee to keep me warm and awake.
The Molecular Biology and Technique (MBT) practical follow-up was a disappointment. It turned out that none of my classmate has their cells glowing in the dark. Still, our agar plate have sign of growth on it. For 7 weeks, we have been working on it. Taking all the precaution, still we failed >< . Oh well, just forget about it.
Stupid Analytical Biochemistry (ABC) assignment is due soon, this Friday. My group is almost done, just left with my research area and the video. The video gave quite a bit of problem but it was solved. No potential problem seems to be ahead of us. Hope that it turn out fine.
I went home by taking bus 76 and I actually overshot my stop. Well, I was sleeping on the bus. So tired this few days... Zzz
The Molecular Biology and Technique (MBT) practical follow-up was a disappointment. It turned out that none of my classmate has their cells glowing in the dark. Still, our agar plate have sign of growth on it. For 7 weeks, we have been working on it. Taking all the precaution, still we failed >< . Oh well, just forget about it.
Stupid Analytical Biochemistry (ABC) assignment is due soon, this Friday. My group is almost done, just left with my research area and the video. The video gave quite a bit of problem but it was solved. No potential problem seems to be ahead of us. Hope that it turn out fine.
I went home by taking bus 76 and I actually overshot my stop. Well, I was sleeping on the bus. So tired this few days... Zzz
20 May 2010
I had been to the Singapore Navy Open House today. Well, the weather is hot but it didn't rain so there is a balance. As usual, there is the frigate and other ship. I boarded the frigate and seen the facilities. The clique saw there is a submarine and decided to visit it. But it was not open to public. What a waste. It will be so cool to actually board on a submarine. After the frigate, most of the people were resting under a shelter with cooler fans. Actually, I didn't want to move much due to the weather. The visit to Navy was not so fun. I still prefer to SAFTI which is more fun. I remembered during sec 4, my class went to SAFTI. There were paintball game, tank display, living firing range shooting and more. So much activities for the people to take part.
After the visit, the clique went to Changi Village and had dinner. Followed after that, we took a stroll at Changi Coastal Walk. I'm not sure of the name. It was rather relaxing walking along the bench. Listen to the wave beating against the sand... Tsz Ting was there picking up seashells. This reminds me of when I was young. I think I was still kindergarden. One of my room is rented out, the tenant was a lady. I used to call her Jie Jie which is sister in Chinese. There is once I was playing with her a board game and I saw a seashell that is in rainbow color. I was interested and asked her how did she get it. She told me that she actually painted it. She teached me how to paint it. She was a nice person which I wish she was my elder sister. She did gave me one shell that she painted it and gave me. Right now, I have no idea where it is. Sigh... How I wished I treasure it properly. Still, I had fun. Thanks clique =)
After the visit, the clique went to Changi Village and had dinner. Followed after that, we took a stroll at Changi Coastal Walk. I'm not sure of the name. It was rather relaxing walking along the bench. Listen to the wave beating against the sand... Tsz Ting was there picking up seashells. This reminds me of when I was young. I think I was still kindergarden. One of my room is rented out, the tenant was a lady. I used to call her Jie Jie which is sister in Chinese. There is once I was playing with her a board game and I saw a seashell that is in rainbow color. I was interested and asked her how did she get it. She told me that she actually painted it. She teached me how to paint it. She was a nice person which I wish she was my elder sister. She did gave me one shell that she painted it and gave me. Right now, I have no idea where it is. Sigh... How I wished I treasure it properly. Still, I had fun. Thanks clique =)
15 May 2010
Let me start this post back to the date when my colleagues found the 2 hamster. This is purely memory-based and there might be still details that I might have missed out. This is the general situation. After the 2 hamster was found, I contacted classmate A and asked if he can keep it. He replied that he will have to see the hamsters and I replied okay. So I asked around if anyone have a cage first to let these 2 to have a proper cage which classmate B have and lent me for awhile. Classmate A saw the hamster and I asked again if he is interested. He replied, 'I anything de, I'm ok with it.' So I hesitated as his answer was not a firm answer plus my colleague A wanted to keep the hamster. So I replied, ' I get back to you asap.' After that, I checked with my colleague A and found out that he is keen to keep it. As he was a first -timer, I was worried. I didn't want the hamster to suffer. In order to ensure the safety of the hamster and let my colleague keep, I decided to give one to classmate A and one to my colleague A. I talked to him during marketing tutorial. He replied, ' Huh, don't want la. Don't separate them la. Why don't you keep instead?' So I agreed and kept both of them.
The day that i got the classmate B's cage, I got my colleague B's cage at the night. So I have 2 cages. My intention of having 2 cages is to separate the hamsters if they are fighting and NOT to see both the hamster fighting. At the same time, it increases the area which the hamsters can freely roam around. As I heard that hamsters sometimes fight quite violently, so I decided to have some precaution first before both hamster died of fighting each other. But unfortunately, classmate B send a text to me saying that he wanted to take back the cage. He did not state reason. At first, I thought something is wrong but then again, he is my friend so I didn't question much about it. I thought that he might be getting a new hamster. That morning, I was playing soccer with the guys in my class. After that, I went back to get the cage as I forgot in the morning. Soon after, the cage was returned.
Back to the recent, I learnt that someone saying that I break promise. He claims that I promised to give him the hamsters and in the end I backed out the idea of giving him the hamsters. Even worse, he also said that the aim of having 2 cages is to see both the hamster fighting each other to their death which is not true.
What a huge misunderstanding to clear up. It is so not gonna be easy... Taking a step at a time...
The day that i got the classmate B's cage, I got my colleague B's cage at the night. So I have 2 cages. My intention of having 2 cages is to separate the hamsters if they are fighting and NOT to see both the hamster fighting. At the same time, it increases the area which the hamsters can freely roam around. As I heard that hamsters sometimes fight quite violently, so I decided to have some precaution first before both hamster died of fighting each other. But unfortunately, classmate B send a text to me saying that he wanted to take back the cage. He did not state reason. At first, I thought something is wrong but then again, he is my friend so I didn't question much about it. I thought that he might be getting a new hamster. That morning, I was playing soccer with the guys in my class. After that, I went back to get the cage as I forgot in the morning. Soon after, the cage was returned.
Back to the recent, I learnt that someone saying that I break promise. He claims that I promised to give him the hamsters and in the end I backed out the idea of giving him the hamsters. Even worse, he also said that the aim of having 2 cages is to see both the hamster fighting each other to their death which is not true.
What a huge misunderstanding to clear up. It is so not gonna be easy... Taking a step at a time...
14 May 2010
Erm, I am pretty tired so I will make today's post into a question and answer.
Q: Does your blog post refers to everyone in your class?
A: Nope. Some people only.
Q: How are you feeling now?
A: Let's see.... Uncomfortable? Restricted?
Q: Do ever quarrel with your friends?
A: Sometimes... But I would say sorry after that and we will patch up.
Q: If people say things about your friends, would you believe them?
A: Nope, I will ask my friend and check with others. Kind of a small scale investigation. Hoping to clear them name.
Q: Do you ever whack ladies/girl/woman as in fighting or hurt her?
A: Nope.
Q: Do you trust friends?
A: Yes 100%, why not?
Q: Are you 'whacking' your friend to bully them?
A: My 'whacking' is usually friendly but sometimes it is harsh. But generally, it is friendly. I have stopped recently. Now, I only do with PS people like HX who understands it.
Q: Why do you sit with the PS people when there is lecture combined with them?
A: Ask Lidya, she is my 'brother' who understands me.
Q: If there is any chance of patching things up, would you do it?
A: Yes, I would. I will never (ever x 10 to the infinite) want to lose a friend unless the situation is really bad.
Q: What do you mean by united class?
A: Never mind, that idea is being screwed. I only go for peace.
*End of Q&A*
Q: Does your blog post refers to everyone in your class?
A: Nope. Some people only.
Q: How are you feeling now?
A: Let's see.... Uncomfortable? Restricted?
Q: Do ever quarrel with your friends?
A: Sometimes... But I would say sorry after that and we will patch up.
Q: If people say things about your friends, would you believe them?
A: Nope, I will ask my friend and check with others. Kind of a small scale investigation. Hoping to clear them name.
Q: Do you ever whack ladies/girl/woman as in fighting or hurt her?
A: Nope.
Q: Do you trust friends?
A: Yes 100%, why not?
Q: Are you 'whacking' your friend to bully them?
A: My 'whacking' is usually friendly but sometimes it is harsh. But generally, it is friendly. I have stopped recently. Now, I only do with PS people like HX who understands it.
Q: Why do you sit with the PS people when there is lecture combined with them?
A: Ask Lidya, she is my 'brother' who understands me.
Q: If there is any chance of patching things up, would you do it?
A: Yes, I would. I will never (ever x 10 to the infinite) want to lose a friend unless the situation is really bad.
Q: What do you mean by united class?
A: Never mind, that idea is being screwed. I only go for peace.
*End of Q&A*
13 May 2010
Recently, one of my classmate asked me this question about which of the 3 main groups in my class I am supporting. I did not replied her. But the answer is very simple. I am not supporting any of the three group. A decent class being divided into 3 main group, it is fine as long as the class remain united. But I don't really see it. Politics in class does not support that the class is united. Generally, I feel that the guys have not much problem with it. Neither am I saying the girls have problem. Now the class like people from gangster, divided into 3 main group. What a joke. People I can get along with, I will try to maintain. I will try to know the people who I have not made friends with.
A factor in friendship I keep is trust. No matter what others may say, I still trust my friend unless I see it for myself. Trust does not only applies to this example. I trust my friend will not say anything behind my back as I will do not do so. The moment I hear my friends saying behind my back, it is not anger that comes but sadness. The friend I talk with, believe in, work with, just say things behind my back. This really break things up. If there is something you not happy with me, just talk it out with me. Just cut things short and simple. Why bother beat around the bush? Isn't talking face to face much more simple than beating-around-the-bush just to achieve something. I may make mistakes cause I am not perfect. I still have lots to learn. I don't mind people coming to say, 'Hey Wei Keat, I feel that you need to change your attitude because....' No, seriously I don't mind as long as you provide a reason for it and I will change it. If they have no trust in me, I WILL END THE FRIENDSHIP RIGHT ON THE SPOT. Simple as that. Reason? Simple, if there is no trust, would that person keep doubting you? Would that person keep checking on you? Would you feel restricted because he/she is like keeping his/her eyes on you? Strictly speaking, I will not tolerate people who don't trust.
My 'whacking' people suppose to be 'friendly' become 'violent/bully/aggressive'. There is even some worse words used on my action. Fine, I just be a freaking dummy in campus. When with you guys, I also be a dummy. Speak when spoken to. Is this what you want? Sure, I can be that. It is very fortunate for me to have friends that still with me despite some 'influence'. I am not saying that others are not my friends, they are the 'better friends' I had in campus. So much misunderstanding... Guess I just stfu and do my own things.
A factor in friendship I keep is trust. No matter what others may say, I still trust my friend unless I see it for myself. Trust does not only applies to this example. I trust my friend will not say anything behind my back as I will do not do so. The moment I hear my friends saying behind my back, it is not anger that comes but sadness. The friend I talk with, believe in, work with, just say things behind my back. This really break things up. If there is something you not happy with me, just talk it out with me. Just cut things short and simple. Why bother beat around the bush? Isn't talking face to face much more simple than beating-around-the-bush just to achieve something. I may make mistakes cause I am not perfect. I still have lots to learn. I don't mind people coming to say, 'Hey Wei Keat, I feel that you need to change your attitude because....' No, seriously I don't mind as long as you provide a reason for it and I will change it. If they have no trust in me, I WILL END THE FRIENDSHIP RIGHT ON THE SPOT. Simple as that. Reason? Simple, if there is no trust, would that person keep doubting you? Would that person keep checking on you? Would you feel restricted because he/she is like keeping his/her eyes on you? Strictly speaking, I will not tolerate people who don't trust.
My 'whacking' people suppose to be 'friendly' become 'violent/bully/aggressive'. There is even some worse words used on my action. Fine, I just be a freaking dummy in campus. When with you guys, I also be a dummy. Speak when spoken to. Is this what you want? Sure, I can be that. It is very fortunate for me to have friends that still with me despite some 'influence'. I am not saying that others are not my friends, they are the 'better friends' I had in campus. So much misunderstanding... Guess I just stfu and do my own things.
11 May 2010
It has been awhile since the last time I actually blog. Really long time. New semesters starts and projects are already in progress. Recently, I think there have been cases of misunderstanding or issues towards me. But I don't really care. Why? Reason is simple, I rather focus on work than these kind of issue. It is just waste of time. Time spent on these issue might allow me to do more things with my project and lab reports. Beside, the world does not stop revolving if I lose that friend. Life still have to go on. People may say things behind my back but I have no fear for my conscious is clear. It is their mouth to say things behind me. I can't stop them, so I just let them be. If I lose 5 or more friends, I'm fine because I have been through a period when I do not have a single friend. They want to cut me off, I'm fine. I won't die because of no friends. So in future, if anyone want to cut off me, just say so in front of me. I'm alright with it. Tsk tsk... politics in campus. The style has no change at all. I shan't waste my time, for those who want to avoid me, just go ahead. I'm not wasting my time on you =)
16 Mar 2010
Just came back from the stock take, I had a short of rest. QQ is dead. It died last night when I was working. I had expected that this day had come. At least, it is not suffering anymore. I really hate that person who threw QQ in the open and leave it to die. At least take care of it till it died... My mum tried to reach me but I was rather busy at work. I guess I end here since I do not have much mood to type anything else.
26 Feb 2010
As usual, I blog about QQ (name of the hamster that I found). I observed that it is starting to get weaker. Sometimes, it even kind of in a daze with it's stomach facing up. Condition does not look too good for QQ. Also, I would like to say thanks to my friends who offered to bring it to a vet. I was thinking to share cost with someone because my Minister of Finance (my mum) disagree that I should bring it to a vet since it may die sooner or later. I understand her point of view. Still, I spoke to her about splitting the cost and she seems to have no objection.... If you wondering what is QQ doing right now, usual stuff like jumping up in attempt to get out of the box and scratching itself. Not to mention, curling of itself. Sometimes, it jumped till it's stomach facing up...
25 Feb 2010
Yo people, I am back to blog just a short while. Taking a break from studies. First to blog about is QQ. I noticed that it wants to be free as it keep jumping up and down in the box in attempt to escape I guess. Also, it chewed up the corner of the newspaper which I used it for bedding. Does hamsters have this behavior or is it just only QQ? Some photos of it... One photos appears to be that QQ is curious with my handphone's camera. Laugh out loud.
Now about me, I finally submitted my cadet officer course form. WOOT! I seen the Director. He seems to be a nice person. His assistant is also a nice person as well. From the Director, it seems that I am not the first one who need his endorsement. Hmmm, if that's the case, I wonder why NYP don't have NCC as one of the CCA. I do see NPCC is one of them. Never mind, at least i submitted the form, just that short of O Level Certificate and NAFA certificate. Oh well, I submit to them after my test is over =D. Cya guys around and take care
24 Feb 2010
Last night, my friend, Jin Xuan, asked me what is the name of the hamster. I replied her that I did not give it a name. So on the spot, I thought of a name, 'QQ'. Laugh out loud, what a name for a hamster. As usual, QQ still running around in the box, trying to look for a way to get out of the box. Just curious, does hamster drink water at all? Cause QQ has not been drinking water for about 1 and a half days already. So I am not sure if that is ok but I do know living things need water. I also notice one thing, QQ sometimes would just sit at a corner and start to 'emo'. How cute is that?
Back to me, I don't think anyone would be interest. Semester exam. 5 papers, 2 down and 3 to go. Next Tuesday is the last paper. WOOT. FREEDOM! I finally can have a good rest after next Tuesday. I was pretty busy as I have to get the Director of School of Chemical & Life Science (LS) to sign my form. I got the call from Ms Tan and I went to secondary school to take the form. I rushed to NYP to look for the Director of NYP to sign my form. I hand the form over to the Student Administration Office and headed back home. One hour later, I received a call from the Student Administration Office saying that I need to submit to the School of Chemical & Life Science Administration Office. Once again, I went back to NYP again. Bad news, the Administration Office at School of Chemical & Life Science was closed due to some event. Guess have to come back tomorrow. Sigh... All well. Hopefully I can get it sign by tomorrow as tomorrow is the deadline.
Back to me, I don't think anyone would be interest. Semester exam. 5 papers, 2 down and 3 to go. Next Tuesday is the last paper. WOOT. FREEDOM! I finally can have a good rest after next Tuesday. I was pretty busy as I have to get the Director of School of Chemical & Life Science (LS) to sign my form. I got the call from Ms Tan and I went to secondary school to take the form. I rushed to NYP to look for the Director of NYP to sign my form. I hand the form over to the Student Administration Office and headed back home. One hour later, I received a call from the Student Administration Office saying that I need to submit to the School of Chemical & Life Science Administration Office. Once again, I went back to NYP again. Bad news, the Administration Office at School of Chemical & Life Science was closed due to some event. Guess have to come back tomorrow. Sigh... All well. Hopefully I can get it sign by tomorrow as tomorrow is the deadline.
23 Feb 2010
Last night, I found a hamster in a small drain. I tried to catch and thought it is not scare of us. In the end, I have to sort of chase it a bit. It ran away when i almost touch it's head. I took it home after i caught it.When I reached home, I realized this little guy here has a tumor on it's right side of the body. The size of the tumor is about 1/4 of it's size. The tumor is causing this fellow here a little bit walking problem. Today, I just fed it with sunflower seeds as last night. Most of the shop were closed so have to wait till today. Due to restriction, I am unable to bring it to a vet. This makes me even more guilty than ever. Just to show you the hamster with the tumor, I taken a picture of it. As you can see, the red portion is the tumor I am referring to. Worse still, there is a small yellowish opening which I think that may have make things worse. And finding it in a small drain is not a good thing as there are bacteria and virus in the drain that may worse the situation. Poor guy. Right now, it is staying in my house and it is safe and sound for now.
18 Feb 2010
Heyo people, I just came back from Malaysia. Although this year reunion is quite quiet due to some money issue and money-faced people, they didn't bother to come back. Oh well, the world is much better without them around. This time round, there is internet connection at my mum's hometown. HURRAY! I played Warcraft 3, Maplestory and surfed the net there. I used the wireless connection so that I can switch on the air-con in my room and use my laptop. I have 2 cousins over there. One seemed to remain the same size and the other one seems to be grown much taller since the last time I saw her. One of my relative seems to have problems with the liver as his eye white seems to be yellow. Once I completed my university (if I ever enter), I shall go back and treat them like how they treat my relative and my mum. I will make them pay back. They think they have capable sons and daughters and they show people attitude. Well, Singapore currency change to Malaysia currency seems to be twice. I shall pawn them with that. Bully my relative, I will make you guys pay. You guys wait and see....
7 Feb 2010
Zhi Yuan, I really appreciate your help but then it will works to a certain extent only. Although time can cure most illness, it also means certain things WILL BE THERE FOREVER when it is keep happening until it just scar there. A small cut leave no scar but a major cut leave a scar for LIFE. For how long I have been keeping every single shit in me, I wanted to say out but I just can't find the right person. Leave alone the closest person to me who have been offensive for like how long when i wanted to share things with her. As time passes by and things stay the same, it turns to a habit. There is a saying in Chinese says that 'A leopard never change it's spot'. Something like that. True, it is hard to change a habit. Blog has been the way for me to vent out my feeling, frustration, anger, sadness and other feelings. I am not having a grudge against her or what. I am just giving up already. I did talk to her but failed. So I gave up as I did not see any point in continuing to talk to her. From the time I gave up until now, I have been blogging. So blog is like my relative. Although it will not talk to you or feedback to you, AT LEAST IT TAKE IN WHAT I TYPE. At least my friends are better, they listened and provide constructive suggestion. The main thing is listening. The power of listening can allow others to feel better. THAT'S WHY GOD GAVE US 2 EAR AND NOT 2 MOUTH FOR CRYING OUT LOUD SAKE. Nope, she did not get that. Right now, I only can talk to her about daily stuff and not personal stuff. NO SHIT MAN! She can forget about getting in to my freaking personal life. NO WAY! NOT IN THIS LIFE. This is because I am taking precaution to prevent the freaking history to repeats itself again. No way, I don't want this kind of shit to happen again. No no no. The way I let things out is through music, blog and facebook. If things need to be said out, I will either go to my gang or my friends in campus. Usually gang more. Especially the guys in the gang. I am officially shutting her out of my personal world and letting her in my daily life. Thanks for being there for me gang and my friends... Really, I appreciate it a lot till no words can describe it. Although I may be neutral in my facial expression, but I really appreciate it in my heart. She may be crying when she talking to my close friend but what about me? WHAT ABOUT ME!?!?! I can't cry for I have no tears to cry anymore. I did not even shed a freaking tear when my grandmother died. I can't shout it out cause I will disturb other and some may even think I am crazy. I can't cut myself for I am the only child. I can't end my life cause I haven't repay my mother who have been raising me up for so long. SO MANY RESTRICTION!!! So I just kept it to myself. Imagine someone hurt you until you are so afraid, would you want it again? OF COURSE NOT, that is why I am isolating myself from her as a precaution. Once bitten, twice shy. She may be the closet to me but then she is like a normal person to me. I even feel more closer with my friends than her. I had given you so much chance but you did not treasure it. I'm sorry.
4 Feb 2010
Recently, Nuar noticed this pattern of me which I listen to either instrumental music as background or just pure instrumental music like piano. There is actually a reason behind it. When I am feeling low, I just play some instrumental music. For example, Apologize by One Republic or Price Of Freedom, Theme song for Final Fantasy Crisis Core. I am able to think it out and let it out silently without even knowing. Last time, I seldom tell my girlfriend about my matters for I do not want them to worry. Same goes to my friends. I believe that they have enough troubles, I do not wish to further stack on it. But if they tell their troubles, I swear this upon my life that I will listen to you. Suren is right in his comment, I do have a problem. But I am going to let it faint away. No joke. Suren, Nuar, Jin Xiang and 2 of my classmate, you know what i meant. Seriously, I think I still insist on my principle (although it may be a problem at the start), liking/loving someone means he/she is happy, as long as she is happy, I will be alright =D
2 Feb 2010
In just about 2 day's time, it will be 16 years already. Time flies real fast. What's left is only his photos and no memories in my brain. Photos of him carrying me when I was young. Fate do knows how to play mean tricks on people. By comparing with other people, I believe I have one word short in my brain for I never had a chance to use it. I am so envy of others. I am going to be moodless for the next 2 days....
1 Feb 2010
Right now, I just want to work my head off. Sometimes, I feel this gap with my friends in my class. I have nothing to say much. Leon, Guo Wei and sometimes chat about games, I know not much about games. They sometimes talk about school work, I knew nothing about it cause I didn't study. So I have nothing much to say. I just listen to them and reply when needed. Otherwise, I will be shooting Leon. Sometimes I do feel bad about it as I feel the jokes i cracked may be overboard. I scare of offending them. I rather make friends than enemy. They have no problem, I guess problem lies with me. With the people in MB, I don't have much too say but on the other hand with PS people, I have no problem starting a conversation. This is the main reason I had been sitting with PS for some time. He Xiang, Andrew, Jun An and Sheng Yang, I have no problem starting a conversation with them. I can study with them as well. I am just more comfortable with them as compared to my classmate. Weird but true. I am comfortable to ask question with the PS people as compared to my classmate....
26 Jan 2010
Recently, my patience is really limited. A moment ago, my mum was nagging at me because of a friend. I do not wish to mention his name. Because he did not have a printer, he have to go others' place to print his document. He came to my house and print. Then my mum was nagging at me because I let him print for free. I got her message already but she still goes nagging. I got seriously pissed off by her and i shouted at her real loud. I do not want to shout in the first place but she keep nagging at me. I feel so terrible after shouted at her. I mean if you want me to charge him money, I am alright with it. You don't have to nag so many times like as if it is a big thing. I quarreled with her and soon after, she stopped nagging. It was total silence after that. Seriously speaking, I don't want this to happen. I am already frustrated with my work in terms of school and work and she have to add on. Now, the atmosphere is so intense and I don't feel comfortable. If I done anything wrong, just tell me once. Nagging just make me pissed off. I have been trying to tell her that and she doesn't gets it....
8 Jan 2010
Today's NYP Open House, i totally ruined it for one class. I was a total failure. I feel a very strong sense of disatisfying. As in, I didn't let the students fully understand any of the course. I actually misled them. I even made them walked up the steps. Really, screw this. This was not i intended. I was full of energy and excited once I got to know my secondary school is coming for the open house. But yet, i runined with my own hands. The feeling is really sucks. I asked my juniors and I got to know that they are coming to NYP at around. I got up at 9am and making my way to NYP to volunteer my help despite the fact that i am supposed to report at 12pm. I hate this feeling. Really. A really simple job and yet i failed. ARRR!!!! This feeling is really miserable... Still, seeing them mostly went back happily. I felt happy for them. After that, i joined with my usual clique and headed back to secondary school to see if i can help out with the CCA Open House. Generally, it was good. I reached with sore calf muscle and fatigue... What a mixed feeling i have...
1 Jan 2010
Right now, i really don't know what to do. I am frustrated. My life is screwed when my father passed away. I really hate it. Some people said i must be very close to my mother. In fact, it is the opposite. I tried talking to her, it failed. Last time, i tried sharing my problems with her and she just shot me down. From then on, i never share my problems, joy and sorrows with her. When i need a listening ear, i usually turn to my friends. But usually, i just kept it to myself. I just endured it over. Every single crap i got, i just kept it to myself. To be honest, she doesn't even know how i am doing in poly right now. I know she will just nag me again. Everytime, she will just nag. One thing i hate most is massive nagging. Unfortuantely, my mum is doing that. She is still restricting me in almost every ways. This is pure crap. I really hate it. I understands that she cares but can she not overdoing it? CAUSE RIGHT NOW I FEELING THAT SHE IS OVERDOING IT. At home, i rarely talk to her. I think that is why i don't really speak much on the way home or to campus. I would just switch on my headset and blast the music. Hoping to get deaf but it didn't work out. Enduring and persevering....
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