10 July 2010

After yesterday's post, I have been thinking. Wei Keat, since you are tired, sick of it, just leave the clique. Have rest. After you are alright, consider it again. But, I think no need to consider. To prevent it from happening again or history repeating itself, I just stand alone but making friends still. No joining of clique but making friends. This is how I analyse things : When a problem arises, solve it. After solving, think of a prevention. In this case, this is the best prevention. No more stupid gossips around in the clique after I leave. No more this kind of crap happening. There will not be a next time. Leon was like brainwashing me not to leave the clique. Sorry Leon, no can't do. Have to leave. Even I resolve the problem with Guo Wei, still have to leave. I need a break, freedom and beside, it's just leaving the clique only. It's not like we turn into enemy. We may not be that close as before (and I don't think we are that close, since there is gossiping around in the group). I don't want to to face sarcastic people when dealing with issue with requires direct and not beat around the bush communication. At night, I had sent an sms to Cheng Guo Wei saying this, "I'm sorry for not informing you regarding the issue of confronting Lidya. As I hope that honest, unedited words to beard by Lidya. If you feel that there is no sincerity, I apologize again on monday face-to-face. And I believe you heard from Leon that I leaving the clique. I hope that you guys will stay together as a clique as before except that without me. Oce again, I'm sorry. There will not be a second time nor next time. Cya.". This message represents that I have no grudge against Guo Wei. But if he wants to bear the grudge with me, I will not do anything. I will still treat him as normal friends. It will be his business to treat me as a friend or foe. I'm not giving a **** anymore. Leon, I am ALWAYS READY TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO SALVAGE A FRIENDSHIP. I gave up because Guo Wei is not willing to listen. I don't give a **** about pride, diginity if friendship is affected. It's good that Leon, you have see that pride and diginity do kills friendship. Couting down to my freedom..