30 July 2010
I had one hour of marketing lecture and 1.5 hours of practical test. I was so freaking sleepy during the lecture. It was partly due to the cold weather in the morning and the lecture was boring as usual. Followed by Analytical Biochemistry practical test, I was pretty nervous. Niva, who was in front of me, told me that my movement was pretty 'automated'. I screwed the practical test. I actually mistook the Bradford reagent as the BSA. But lucky, I managed to work my way out in the end. I re-calculated the remaining Bradford reagent that is supposed to be added and added into the eppendorf tube. The result seems to be ok as the standards solution shows an increasing absorbance reading which it is supposed to be. It appears that I was not the only one that make the mistake. But overall, it was ok. Joke of the day~!
24 July 2010
I'm looking forward to outings next month especially with my working clique. Although they have quited from Fairprice, we still have contact with each other. We are still as close like last time (maybe not for Gladdys). I don't know about her. It appears that there is some issue going and I don't have the full details about it. Since last year, we worked together with each other, hang out with each other. Free and easy. No restrictions at all. We joke, laugh and care each other although we are in different places. Sometimes, outing are organised when one's birthday is closing in. Some of us may not be able to make it for the gathering and instead, they contribute in other ways like gift, wishes and others. To me, it is really the thoughts that counts. It may be a simple outing with simple things and simple gifts but in the end, I appreciate all the thoughts as they really care for me as a friend. I miss those days where we joke at work, disturbing one another and working together. Those days were really AWESOME! The word "awesome" is not really enough to describe it. I'm just using it as an analogy. I remember the times when I met stupid customer and I told them that I would sent the computer screen flying into customer's face. We laughed and had a bit of fun back there. On my birthday, to be honest, I don't mind a simple gathering like dinner as I really hoped to catch up with them in their life. I'm quiting pretty soon as well. Next week would be the last week that I am going to work and it represent the start of my studies. I am going to catch up with all the studies. Now the branch left Nuar and Jin Xiang. Oh well, I will drop by sometime and say hi to them and some of the aunties there who treated very nice. Recently, I found my "long-lost" MP3 player but the ear piece spoiled =.=lll. Crap, I need to get a new one. Haix. Still, the working clique are still the same. Free and easy. Speak freely. This is the way I like best =D
10 July 2010
After yesterday's post, I have been thinking. Wei Keat, since you are tired, sick of it, just leave the clique. Have rest. After you are alright, consider it again. But, I think no need to consider. To prevent it from happening again or history repeating itself, I just stand alone but making friends still. No joining of clique but making friends. This is how I analyse things : When a problem arises, solve it. After solving, think of a prevention. In this case, this is the best prevention. No more stupid gossips around in the clique after I leave. No more this kind of crap happening. There will not be a next time. Leon was like brainwashing me not to leave the clique. Sorry Leon, no can't do. Have to leave. Even I resolve the problem with Guo Wei, still have to leave. I need a break, freedom and beside, it's just leaving the clique only. It's not like we turn into enemy. We may not be that close as before (and I don't think we are that close, since there is gossiping around in the group). I don't want to to face sarcastic people when dealing with issue with requires direct and not beat around the bush communication. At night, I had sent an sms to Cheng Guo Wei saying this, "I'm sorry for not informing you regarding the issue of confronting Lidya. As I hope that honest, unedited words to beard by Lidya. If you feel that there is no sincerity, I apologize again on monday face-to-face. And I believe you heard from Leon that I leaving the clique. I hope that you guys will stay together as a clique as before except that without me. Oce again, I'm sorry. There will not be a second time nor next time. Cya.". This message represents that I have no grudge against Guo Wei. But if he wants to bear the grudge with me, I will not do anything. I will still treat him as normal friends. It will be his business to treat me as a friend or foe. I'm not giving a **** anymore. Leon, I am ALWAYS READY TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO SALVAGE A FRIENDSHIP. I gave up because Guo Wei is not willing to listen. I don't give a **** about pride, diginity if friendship is affected. It's good that Leon, you have see that pride and diginity do kills friendship. Couting down to my freedom..
9 July 2010
BEFORE YOU READ THIS POST, IF THERE IS ANY THINGS THAT YOU FEEL THAT I SHOULD BE RESPONSIBLE FOR. SAY IT IN FRONT OF ME. I WILL TAKE UP THE *** **** RESPONSIBILITY.
This morning, I told myself to patch back the friendship between Guo Wei and I. I offered to print today's Analytical Biochemistry practical today. I photocopied for Leon, Tsz Ting, Guo Wei and Leon but I printed the wrong manuel. I asked Huda to print for them since she need to use a thumbdrive to print her stuff. In the end, Tsz Ting had her own copy. So I gave to Sherry, Leon, Guo Wei and Lidya. I paid the money back to Niva since it was her who paid for the 4 copies. Guo Wei got the 4 copies and he put it on the desk that I was sitting on in a cold attitude. I told myself, "He is still mad at me, never mind. I should give him some time to think about." Throughout the day, he was cold to me. I was unable to understand. Before the practical, there was an one hour lecture of marketing. After the marketing, I called him but he choose to ignore. Once again, I understand how he feels. Around 1pm, I told Leon, Joshua and Guo Wei that we have a meeting for our marketing project. Leon had Japanese lesson which mean Guo Wei and Joshua are able to attend. They did turned up. However, it was not a good meeting as Guo Wei sharing ideas only to Joshua while I sharing ideas with Guo Wei and Joshua. I was talking to the both of them and Guo Wei was talking softly to Joshua. I can still hear them but it was soft and some parts I did not hear it. In the end, the meeting ended shortly after. I told Joshua to discuss online as Guo Wei was unco-operative. He is mixing his personal and studies together as one issue which means he brings the attitude of the incident to the assignment. That is the reason I ended the meeting. Whatever I say, he will not listen. Yesterday, I sent an sms saying that there is meeting today. IF ANYONE DO NOT WISH TO SEE ME TOMORROW, THEY CAN GO BACK AFTER THE PRACTICAL ENDED AND I WILL NOT REPORT TO THE TEACHER. (I missed out the "me" in the original message). This is because I know that Guo Wei most likely will be still angry after what had happened yesterday afternoon. He turned up and I thought he is fine already, ready to get work. In the end, it was not what I expect. He still not ready for work, in fact he still brings the attitude to the meeting. He just comes for the sake of coming. We are close to or already 18 and he is already 18 for crying out loud! He still cannot separate between work and personal life/friends. The meeting is to discuss the assignment, NOT TO SHOW YOUR F***ING ATTITUDE FROM YOUR PERSONAL LIFE OR TO SHOW YOUR UNHAPPINESS TOWARDS ME. WHEN IT IS WORK, TALK ABOUT WORK ONLY. WHEN IT IS PERSONAL LIFESTYLE, WE TALK ABOUT PERSONAL LIFE STUFF. NOT MIXING EVERY SINGLE S*** INTO ONE BIG F***ING LUMP AND DROP THE F***ING BOMB TO ME! 18 YEARS OLD AND YOU STILL STUBBORN, SORRY I CANNOT TOLERATE THIS KIND OF STUBBORNESS IN WORK. I CANNOT TOLERATE PEOPLE WHO MIX PERSONAL AND WORK. But for Guo Wei, I choose to believe it is only for a moment. I believe that he remove his cold attitude towards me and we can be friends again. When i talked to him earlier on the meeting, he told me, 'I regretted saving you back then.' Back to the hamster issue, it was Guo Wei who first told me about it, followed by Lidya. Back then, Guo Wei told he felt that I have the right to know what is going on. SAME GOES HERE! Lidya have the right to know about what is being talked about her behind her back. SIMPLE AS THAT. IF YOU THINK I TRYING TO SABOTAGE YOUR FRIENDSHIP WITH LIDYA, YOU ARE NOT MY FRIEND. LIDYA, LEON AND TSZ TING UNDERSTAND ESPECIALLY LIDYA WHO UNDERSTAND ME TOTALLY. Then again, if you had told her how you feel, would this happen? WOULD IT? Instead of telling another person, tell it straight into the person's face. Simple? Yes? If you got the guts, say it straight it the face of that person. IF YOU ARE UNHAPPY WITH ME, SAY IT OUT LOUD IN FRONT OF ME. The way I see now and I can describe it with one word: CHILDISH. We are already young adults, we can talk it out and you choose to show your F***ING childish attitude to me. Wow, maybe you should go back to primary school. You got a mouth, why not talk to me? EVEN IF I TALK TO YOU, WOULD YOU EVEN LISTEN A SINGLE D*** THING INTO YOUR F***ING HEAD? WOULD YOU? CAUSE YOU ARE JUST F***ING TOO STUBBORN! BESIDE STUBBORN, YOU ARE PETTY AS WELL CAUSE YOU BEAR GRUDGES WITH PEOPLE. Enough saying. I'm tired. I'm sick of it. I don't want to join ANY F***ING CLIQUE ANYMORE! I'M BETTER OFF THAN ALONE. AND YES, I REFERING TO CHENG GUO WEI FROM MB0903 WITH THE ADMIN NUMBER OF 094357H. NO MORE F***ING GUESSING GAME! F*** THIS ****
This morning, I told myself to patch back the friendship between Guo Wei and I. I offered to print today's Analytical Biochemistry practical today. I photocopied for Leon, Tsz Ting, Guo Wei and Leon but I printed the wrong manuel. I asked Huda to print for them since she need to use a thumbdrive to print her stuff. In the end, Tsz Ting had her own copy. So I gave to Sherry, Leon, Guo Wei and Lidya. I paid the money back to Niva since it was her who paid for the 4 copies. Guo Wei got the 4 copies and he put it on the desk that I was sitting on in a cold attitude. I told myself, "He is still mad at me, never mind. I should give him some time to think about." Throughout the day, he was cold to me. I was unable to understand. Before the practical, there was an one hour lecture of marketing. After the marketing, I called him but he choose to ignore. Once again, I understand how he feels. Around 1pm, I told Leon, Joshua and Guo Wei that we have a meeting for our marketing project. Leon had Japanese lesson which mean Guo Wei and Joshua are able to attend. They did turned up. However, it was not a good meeting as Guo Wei sharing ideas only to Joshua while I sharing ideas with Guo Wei and Joshua. I was talking to the both of them and Guo Wei was talking softly to Joshua. I can still hear them but it was soft and some parts I did not hear it. In the end, the meeting ended shortly after. I told Joshua to discuss online as Guo Wei was unco-operative. He is mixing his personal and studies together as one issue which means he brings the attitude of the incident to the assignment. That is the reason I ended the meeting. Whatever I say, he will not listen. Yesterday, I sent an sms saying that there is meeting today. IF ANYONE DO NOT WISH TO SEE ME TOMORROW, THEY CAN GO BACK AFTER THE PRACTICAL ENDED AND I WILL NOT REPORT TO THE TEACHER. (I missed out the "me" in the original message). This is because I know that Guo Wei most likely will be still angry after what had happened yesterday afternoon. He turned up and I thought he is fine already, ready to get work. In the end, it was not what I expect. He still not ready for work, in fact he still brings the attitude to the meeting. He just comes for the sake of coming. We are close to or already 18 and he is already 18 for crying out loud! He still cannot separate between work and personal life/friends. The meeting is to discuss the assignment, NOT TO SHOW YOUR F***ING ATTITUDE FROM YOUR PERSONAL LIFE OR TO SHOW YOUR UNHAPPINESS TOWARDS ME. WHEN IT IS WORK, TALK ABOUT WORK ONLY. WHEN IT IS PERSONAL LIFESTYLE, WE TALK ABOUT PERSONAL LIFE STUFF. NOT MIXING EVERY SINGLE S*** INTO ONE BIG F***ING LUMP AND DROP THE F***ING BOMB TO ME! 18 YEARS OLD AND YOU STILL STUBBORN, SORRY I CANNOT TOLERATE THIS KIND OF STUBBORNESS IN WORK. I CANNOT TOLERATE PEOPLE WHO MIX PERSONAL AND WORK. But for Guo Wei, I choose to believe it is only for a moment. I believe that he remove his cold attitude towards me and we can be friends again. When i talked to him earlier on the meeting, he told me, 'I regretted saving you back then.' Back to the hamster issue, it was Guo Wei who first told me about it, followed by Lidya. Back then, Guo Wei told he felt that I have the right to know what is going on. SAME GOES HERE! Lidya have the right to know about what is being talked about her behind her back. SIMPLE AS THAT. IF YOU THINK I TRYING TO SABOTAGE YOUR FRIENDSHIP WITH LIDYA, YOU ARE NOT MY FRIEND. LIDYA, LEON AND TSZ TING UNDERSTAND ESPECIALLY LIDYA WHO UNDERSTAND ME TOTALLY. Then again, if you had told her how you feel, would this happen? WOULD IT? Instead of telling another person, tell it straight into the person's face. Simple? Yes? If you got the guts, say it straight it the face of that person. IF YOU ARE UNHAPPY WITH ME, SAY IT OUT LOUD IN FRONT OF ME. The way I see now and I can describe it with one word: CHILDISH. We are already young adults, we can talk it out and you choose to show your F***ING childish attitude to me. Wow, maybe you should go back to primary school. You got a mouth, why not talk to me? EVEN IF I TALK TO YOU, WOULD YOU EVEN LISTEN A SINGLE D*** THING INTO YOUR F***ING HEAD? WOULD YOU? CAUSE YOU ARE JUST F***ING TOO STUBBORN! BESIDE STUBBORN, YOU ARE PETTY AS WELL CAUSE YOU BEAR GRUDGES WITH PEOPLE. Enough saying. I'm tired. I'm sick of it. I don't want to join ANY F***ING CLIQUE ANYMORE! I'M BETTER OFF THAN ALONE. AND YES, I REFERING TO CHENG GUO WEI FROM MB0903 WITH THE ADMIN NUMBER OF 094357H. NO MORE F***ING GUESSING GAME! F*** THIS ****
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